I Sometimes Feel Very Alone
I am the youngest of total 4 sons in my family with religious parents. We have moved alot cus of my fathers work.
I am a caring guy and Im always told Im funny and talented.
Yet I struggle with confidence.
I always did parody's and made my friends and people I knew laugh.
still do...
I got a loving family and I always say yes, Its like Im afraid of hurting someone by saying no.
I havent been in a steady relasionship, I only had 3 girlfriends and nothing sexual in thoose.
I only had sex when I was drunk and I cant really remember that.
I've passed down sex with couple girls because Im not really after just that. I want companion-ship. I want someone to talk to and someone that I can comfort if they are having a bad day or struggling with something.
I love helping people and I always care even if I know the person or not.
I belive that there's something good in everyone and I'm trying to see the best in everyone.
Yet I wake up alone everyday in my appartment which I live alone in and make brekfeast and drive to work.
I work at a furniture store at the warehouse fixing furniture and delivering and recieving furniture. Basicly everything exept selling them.
I got a drug addict alcoholic brother that I've always protected trough the years from I was as young as 8 or 9 yrs old.
I know Im the youngest, but Im the brother in the family that is the closest to all of my brothers.
But yet all I want is someone to hold around and keep safe and its killing me to watch my friends have this while I cant.
I just want a normal girl that isn't the type of girl that gets wasted every weekend and does something idiotic.
Someone I can talk to and that will feel that they can talk to me about anything.
I know Im still young, but I feel like I should have gotten someone by now.
I have no problem what so ever to talk to girls or to flirt.
I guess Im just to picky when it comes to girl because most places I meet them is at party's and thats kinda ironic since I dont want the kind of girl that party's all the time.
Even though I don't want a girlfriend that dont drink aswell. Not that I mind sober people I mean I could easily take a sober one because I have no urge to drink either.
Just felt I had to share this because I got no problem getting to know new people and I almost greet new people with open arms.
I am a caring guy and Im always told Im funny and talented.
Yet I struggle with confidence.
I always did parody's and made my friends and people I knew laugh.
still do...
I got a loving family and I always say yes, Its like Im afraid of hurting someone by saying no.
I havent been in a steady relasionship, I only had 3 girlfriends and nothing sexual in thoose.
I only had sex when I was drunk and I cant really remember that.
I've passed down sex with couple girls because Im not really after just that. I want companion-ship. I want someone to talk to and someone that I can comfort if they are having a bad day or struggling with something.
I love helping people and I always care even if I know the person or not.
I belive that there's something good in everyone and I'm trying to see the best in everyone.
Yet I wake up alone everyday in my appartment which I live alone in and make brekfeast and drive to work.
I work at a furniture store at the warehouse fixing furniture and delivering and recieving furniture. Basicly everything exept selling them.
I got a drug addict alcoholic brother that I've always protected trough the years from I was as young as 8 or 9 yrs old.
I know Im the youngest, but Im the brother in the family that is the closest to all of my brothers.
But yet all I want is someone to hold around and keep safe and its killing me to watch my friends have this while I cant.
I just want a normal girl that isn't the type of girl that gets wasted every weekend and does something idiotic.
Someone I can talk to and that will feel that they can talk to me about anything.
I know Im still young, but I feel like I should have gotten someone by now.
I have no problem what so ever to talk to girls or to flirt.
I guess Im just to picky when it comes to girl because most places I meet them is at party's and thats kinda ironic since I dont want the kind of girl that party's all the time.
Even though I don't want a girlfriend that dont drink aswell. Not that I mind sober people I mean I could easily take a sober one because I have no urge to drink either.
Just felt I had to share this because I got no problem getting to know new people and I almost greet new people with open arms.