Aw, Bless

From the moment we're born to the moment we die we seek reassurance in almost everything we do.  The entire facade of our existence is a way of reassuring us against the loneliness of rejection and eventual obliviion.  We want smiles, cuddles, laughs or emoticons that understand us.  We want to be heard in a way that validates our experience.

I spent years not caring about reassurance.  I let my personal hygiene slip, I cut my own hair, I slacked and slobbed, I spat on the ground as shocked mothers covered their children's eyes at my passing.  In me though there's a voice telling me I'm right, that this is the only true way to avoid hypocrisy and mendacity.  If others can't reassure us we reassure ourselves.

Don't get me wrong.  I'm not pretending that my self-reassurance is a good thing.  Self-reassurance can be prone to madness.  I've done some weird things in the hope of self-justification.

But, thankfully, I've always managed to avoid the thought that if no-one else will reassure me, at least god will.
CrookedMan CrookedMan
1 Response Apr 13, 2011

your right, we always need someone there to tell us or show us we are doing the right thing or just someone there in general. no one wants to be fully alone in life. But idk spitting and such? how did that reassure you? i guess that you were being a bit of a "rebel" against society and what is expected but isnt it just by accepting yourself, and ones fault that you will truly be able to reasure yourself?

I was just suggesting that one is 'excluded' from society there's a tendency to reject society in return. It was stupid at the time, I agree.

hey no worries, but your right, if you are rejected by society than why hold onto it if your not wanted. your right i reject society too like that XD but im sure you had your reasons at that time