I Really Cant Help It...

At the moment i am keeping everyone at arms length because i feel like a person with no feelings at all so nothing is really bothering me i cant show my girlfriend the affection she wants and when i do its always the wrong time,my family i love and care about but due to me drug addiction i cant really be around them in the state i am in,and i really hate the fact that lifes passing by and i have already lost the most closet person to me,and now i cant bear to be close to any one to save me going through the same crap agian as i cant talk about the things that play on my head as it will play over and over in my head so i blank it out by using,my girlfriend is a person who is so down to earth she really could do better but she is stuck to me like glue,and i know i am going to lose her but as long as its by her doing and not me hurting her,as i have a group of people who want to make my life hell,but i really couldnt care less any more cause they live to cause trouble and pick out weak targets but as long as the people i care about are not around me much they will never win cause i can take the **** they give me,pure nosey people who love to put other people down to make them selves feel good as they are so bitter and twisted and cant let people live their lives without sticking their ore in...................

nuttyrocker nuttyrocker
26-30, F
Mar 8, 2010