When You'Re Never Okay.

I have always been a highly social creature and draw most of my strength from the amazing support I get from my few true friend and family. I have always believed in honesty and suppressing feelings I have generally viewed as a bad thing.


I am finding the question "how are you?" to be increasingly difficul to answer . It gets absolutely exhausting to have to explain over and over why you aren't doing well. I have caught myself falling into the comfort of blowing of the question with a quick "I'm fine" even when it couldn't be further from the truth. I feel guilty about always being the dark cloud. What do you do when you are never okay?

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2 Responses Feb 9, 2013

I've developed the same cloud over me and feels like it keeps pouring anger down on me. I don't know the root of why I'm feeling so angry but I know I am and I know where it stems from. I'm very successful in my career but not my social life and i guess i keep thinking the more success I have the happier ill be but with each step I've attained I keep finding disappointment in myself because I can't find that happiness that smile that person that I USE to be! I'M ANGRY!! And I hate it!! And I don't know what to do about it! I feel like I have no friends even tho the women I work with say they're my friends. But friends do more than just work together at the place of employment. So if I turned to them they'd all be talking about me. I've never thought finding happiness would be do difficult but I feel like I'm drowning with anger, because I can easily cry when I start to mention any problem that I have.
But you are not alone in how you feel!!! I just want you to know that and that someone does care I don't know you but I know what loneliness feels like and I don't want anyone that I know to feel the way I do!! It's awful!

I've found that saying "I'd rather not answer that at the moment" tends to work. usually people are willing to respect that. sometimes they'll continue asking anyway, but I find it is a good way to be honest but not have to go into details if you don't want to.