Giving Up

and i would surely miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You're rigth it is much deeper than what I have said here. I would like to talk to you actually. All the people who I am talking to on here has really helped me alot.



Next time you are on send me a PM if you would. Chances are I will be on.

Not to mean this in a bad way , but i believe that sometimes , we need more than just a piptalk , or " life is still good " talk .



So i think it's so much deeper , than what u say right here , i think u should , if u can , see a pychologist ..



Or if u need someone to talk to right now , i'll be glad to be that one ..:)



Peace ouT , and have a good day :)

For god sakes, last week I just found out my oldest sibling by birth was molested when she was given up for adoption which wasn't even finalized, the people who had her were friends of my birthparents. Yes it was years ago but I just found out 4 days ago and haven't slept since more than an hour!!! School forget that even. I have kept going just barely. I was adopted as well and I feel as it was my fault for what happened to her. I know it wasn't but I can't help feeling that it should have been me not her.

Please, stop this self pity stuff. We all have many things to kill ourselves over. But, hey, It's not over untill it is over. I don't plan on having a funeral so I could care less who would not show up. I have already lost pretty much there is to lose. But tommorow is another day. Look for the sun and the moon and thank the gods for letting you see it.

Sorry but it seems right now not any one can really. Honestly I know few people care about me and I doubt even the few who do would come to my funeral if I did something to kill myself.



What's the good in life anymore for me anyway? I see none.

Still , i get from you that there's some good things ..

To be honest here , i have the thought , of what people wpuld do , after i die , not that i conseder suicide , but just normal dying , In my case , i know that they won't care a bit .



Maybe in ur case it's abit diffrenet but know that u'll live for ur self , and when u'll die , u'll die cuz it's in ur fate .



Maybe good things don't happen usually to u , or maybe they never do .

But happiness , is so much beyond a good thing , it's the feeling u have , even when u are living in such a down place in this earth .

We find happiness when we find peace , and peace can come only when we believe that it's all been written to us , all the good and bad things , that we have a goal , and a calling to accompliche .

Don't expect too much , as well as too less .

Live , as if there's a surprise that's coming ur way every day .. Don't hold any expectations , but the ones u will have in god .



I Hope i made u feel a bit better :) ..

Take care , and Peace ouT :)

There aren't many good things in my life anymore and there were never many to begin with.

Why would you wanna give up everything , i mean even the good things ?