Death, I Scream. Thou Art Hath Hear Me!

hello there. this group is called "i sometimes want to just walk away and cry" but like we all know, somtimes that's just not possible. more on this as i progress. for many, its the trouble of looking after two or three kids whilst keeping the husband fed. need alot of food to feed that big auld belly. ofcourse im just having a laugh. its a huge, anchient belly XD

okay, now im going to get very serious. what you are about to read is the whole truth and nothing but the truth. i sware. im proberbly going to get killed cos of my recent (and not so recent) posts on EP. you couldn't understand, even if you tried. here goes;

i am a vampire. i know your skeptical and thats a good thing, so thats why im gonna let you ask me anything you like. you name it but first i need to explain why i joined this group. i need blood (ofcourse) but i don't want to harm any living thing. i would get a doner but im scared incase i drink to much. scratch that im terrafied. im still changing, so the bloodlust isn't as bad as it would be for full vamps but that doesn't mean, i can control it. its been a couple of months since i last had blood and its killing me. atleast, it feels like it. i am normaly a great actress, i mean ive done live shows in theatre but im finding it hard to hide anymore. im finding myself, admiting to more and more stuff online. whenever i see red, my heart starts pounding (it hasn't stopped...yet) faster and faster. i stare at it as i see imerges flash infront of me, like a drive-in movie. the smell of people. oh god. im scared to hug my besties anymore. even a simple handshake makes me feel overwhelmed. in a classroom, its the worst torture you could ever imagine. i feel like i could just burst out in tears but it only holds as a half hearted defence towords the bloodlust. somtimes i want to die but i promised my self to never give in to either possobility. HELP ME PLEASE!!!
theunderstandingflower theunderstandingflower
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 7, 2013

why won't somone say somthing? anything? please. is there anyone like me? have you gained any helpfull advice/tips? you lot out there must have SOMTHING to say!