After 3 Years I Mean Nothing

its been over a year and i cant forget him although he has long forgotten me.
once in a while he'll humor me, play with my emotions-say he wants me back..
I know better now however..even still that doesnt help.

docter says im 8weeks and a day. all "he" can say is its not his...when  he
should know by now id never lie to him. ....and now all i want is to lay in a
ball and cry.
liloloca22 liloloca22
1 Response Jul 20, 2010

liloloca22,<br />
Your situation brought tears to my eyes, I know it so well. I was there, I'm still there and unfortunately, for me, it doesn't seem like it'll get any better anytime soon. I was with my ex for 10 months, he is the love of my life. I've never felt for anybody the way I feel for him. We broke up, continued to sleep together, then found out I was about 16 weeks pregnant. He immediatly started saying how we weren't mature enough to have a excuse after another. I researched adoption...even had someone interested in having my baby. My ex was pissed. He didn't want to tell his family at all (later I found out that through all of this he's been seeing another girl and sleeping with me too...for months! even after the abortion) Then I realized I didn't want someone else raising my baby, if I couldn't have my baby I didn't want anyone else to have him. It was a selfish decision, but what other choice did I have? I was 17, he was not going to help me, and my mom wasn't much support. I am here for you if you want to talk...about anything at all