Loveless

Iam young they tell me 24
I am also told that iam smart handsome and very matrue a gentlmen by upbring...
two undivorced partents very high standerds yet... I hit all my goals good at school good at all my jobs pomotions and awards yet I cant get a girl friend... funny not gay, i can sorta get laid somewhat but its a bar fishing thing not a hey come met mother kind of thing... when i do get close some how it get ****** up... Iam 24 and never been in love and I know that its wired to say but its cold and alone in my little world... To be told and spoken so highly of yet in that one field that one regard riticuled for lacking the skills the confidince the social network abliity to find a girl iam not sure....

But when ever a semi almost hits me on the freeway i smile... I dont have any motivation to continue at school I did well to try to impress the grils... I like smart girls but iam not picky I am hopeless and lost and as a coward can not face my own death but only reveal in the idea of the salvation of I think there for I am... but if I dont think there for I am not... and If I am not then I dont fell this emptyness....

A deathwish i fell no need to forfill and seek at this point no means to fill it... but it is there
Shadow24 Shadow24
22-25
May 10, 2012