Am I Crazy Or Am I Just Me

I sit in class and look at the faces around me. I think about if I shot up the school who I'd kill first, how I'd do it, who I'd spare if anyone. I don't think I'd ever do it but it gives me something to look forward to. I think about offing myself too, how would I do it? Pills probably, maybe bite a gun. I go off my antidepressants sometimes because I like how I feel without them, I get the most creative thoughts on how to kill people or die. Then I get my mom breathing down my neck saying take your pills, i know you haven't been. Then i do for a while until i forget and then i dont want to remember because i like being off them too much. i could do it right now no ones home, find some old prescription in the cabinet and i'd be gone.
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Jan 10, 2013