My first instinct when things start going wrong is to hide. I do my daily "need to things", but afterward I just don't want to face anyone.
I will drive around in my car for hours. When I tire of that I will just find a place to park. Sit in my car & listen to the radio & think.
I also won't answer my cell. I don't know if it a warped way to get attention, to get people to worry or not. I sometimes think it is a sick little game. I have never really thought about it or admitted that til just now.
If I could, I would run further & leave my life behind. But realistically that is not an option & I don't know if it would do any good, anyway. Because, no matter were I go there I am.