I Can't...........

i can't, i can't, i can't...
why why why why???
i hate my life...
I wish i could be better person for them......
but I can't........
i can't..
no matter how I try, i simply not that good.....
for all my life,, i only give embarassment to them and to myself....
i want to run away or i wish i could caught in an accident and struck my head and got an amnesia and forget who am i and be another person.....
i don't like for who am i right now...