All Alone With My Messed Up Thoughts.
Somedays I really actually like talking to people or being outside. But other days all I want to do is stop fighting all the **** in my head and finally turn my life over to the pain. I get tired of putting up a strong front and pretending that everything is okay. I am usually a good actress and very few people can see through the charade that I put up. I can hide from my pain and anger most days....but it all catches up eventually. I want to cut. I want to hide. I don't want to be anyway anymore. I'm sick of faking happiness. I'm tired of the fights and the tears. I'm just plain tired.
Sorry I needed to vent.