DOING Nothing Much

Today I wuz full of pain!  Some days I cant do much of anything!  I feel like I am not doing my part in life when this happens.  I feel like I am letting GOD down. I hurt myself by trying to lift stuff that is too heavy for me.  I guess I just kind of took it for granted that since GOD took away my pain it would always be gone.

I know I dont do as much for my Lord as I should. He gave His life for me knowing I would always struggle with sin and incompentence. He knew me before I was formed in my mothers womb and still He went to the cross, suffered intolerable torture, and died an excruciating death for me!

I know what I need to do but I always am HAMMERED by hindering spirits sent by Lucifer to deter me from serving my LORD and SAVIOR..Jesus.  I just need to pray harder and have stronger faith in HIM.

I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and put (and KEEP) my eyes on Jesus. I am a child of GOD and as such I will not let this setback get to me.  Just writing this helps me to think and put things in perspective. Thank you for giving me this opportunity to share.

samaritan samaritan
61-65, F
3 Responses Feb 19, 2009

I am sorry that you have had such a horrible experience but, at the same time, very happy that you had the presence of mind to call to HIM! It is truly remarkable that He loves us in spite of everything and helps us through our most low times; I have heard the pastor say that GOD always will lead us to a way out of our troubles we need only to ask Him to guide us to the place He wants us to be in our lives! I have gone through more than I have energy to write about and through it all I KNOW that He has stood with me waiting for me to but ask (which I admit I frequently failed to do right away)! He IS an awesome God! I love HIM, believe in HIM, and trust HIM! Sometimes His answer is no, sometimes I believe He does leave us alone to figure it out on our own, and sometime He leads us to a better place than the one we would have ended up if left on our own! (Thinking that we knew what was best for us we decide erroneously!) Thank you so much for comment on my story and for all your caring ; you are such a dear person and I am so glad that you became my friend! Thank you and GOD bless you and your family!

I am so sorry for your pain dear friend.At times it seems Jesus lets us down,doesnt it?You know better,but the pitched forked one takes advantage of pur pain amd sorrow,Surely keeping your eyes on God is earning you a star in your crown,Was in hospital beginning of march,More terrible discomfort then pain,Then my COPD kicked in,and i had an anxiety attack as i couldnt breathe,they kept telling me to breathe deeply,in and out,So i (TRIED) to take a deep breathe in and when i let it out "said GOD" eventually i calmed down,Was in there 4 days,had pnuemonia too.same thing last march,Pleasures of 'OLDER AGE' God makes it bearable doesn`t He?I will be praying for you.

Vayda, Thanks for commenting on my story! It was more like self-musing; lol. I appreciate it when people comment and I want to thank each and every one. God bless you.