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Yeah This Is Going To Be A Little Embarassing.....

I'm not quite sure where to begin this....only because I'm still embarrassed on how i first started ************, even though I know I'm not alone in this.....
Ummm I'm pretty sure around the time I was five or six is when my ************ technically started. Only because I was doing things with girls then too, and I didn't fully understand the feeling I got from it. Because I wasn't touching myself, I was ummm humping things lol. It would get me off big time too, but I didn't understand it, and even as I got older and done it, I don't think I knew what was going on til I seen ****. Because schools never informed you of things like "*******" and then I couldn't ask my mom because she was an ******* like that. But when I first learned that **** was out there I think I was seven and a friend of mine found her parents **** hahaha so we played around with kissing and humping and I felt normal for the next few years lol after those few experiences. I remember when I was ten or so, my mom caught me doing the deed, and it was so embarrassing, cause I understood I liked it and that it gave me that great feeling, but still didn't understand ************, I think i learned the term, because my mom decided to go and tell her FRIENDS!!!! That I was back there....doing what I was doing, and oh my god I could've kicked her drunk *** lmao, cause they were out there teasing me, I honestly wanted to ******* cry :P But I'm pretty sure I said **** it and finished hahaha. Anyway, I started understanding things more when I'd be around guys I was attracted to also, and found cinemax :P So by the time I was twelve I got it down. but oh my lord, even up until I got to the age of sixteen, I was ashamed of ************ in any form. I made sure I did it before my mom got home from work or whatever, because she either made fun of me or made me feel bad about myself if she ever caught me. It was pathetic in all honesty, I got to a point where i was sneaking ************. I would do it in the shower or just in the bathroom in general since I knew she wouldn't come in. Hell sometimes I would sneak and do it at a friends house, because I knew if I got caught at home I'd be crying or pissed before the end of that damn day.
Okay well I got sidetracked there, lol But that's my story :)
Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 39 Responses May 17, 2012

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Your Mom may not have known the anguish she caused you. So many of her generation have screwed up ideas about kids and sex, and so many of those kids have suffered for it. You know now that ************ is natural and healthy not to mention pleasurable as anything so I'm hoping you've "come out" so to speak and felt free to "do the diddle" whenever the mood strikes.
May we be friends?

Yeah, I started all that stuff at a very young age, around 7 or 8 maybe? And it also included pee play, we would pee on each other. I still like pee, always will. Love a girl to pee while 69ing. ♡♡♡

Same here I was just as young and confused, and would sneak to do it too, lol

I think that we all have a similar story like yours

You should be happy that your Mum humiliated you about it because shameful acts make for better ******* I think.

Omg I'm so sorry. I wish that it wouldn't have been less of a hassle so you could have enjoyed it a lot more let's be friends and message a lot I want to know more was there anybody in your family that understood and helped make it pleasurable for u

Okay, I started at that age as well.. I thought I was weird for starting so early... Like it made me a nymphomaniac or something. It's relieving to know others share the same experience.

Your story reminds me of my early experiences. I think I started ************ at a early age, and like you my friend yeah...uummm...I was humping things. Didn't know what I was doing or that it had a name, just knew that it felt good. Several years later I discovered that it had a name and is kinda taboo. Oh well.

Well it's good to hear you got it all sorted in the end despite your ridiculous mother and her idiotic attitude.

One of life's great pleasures, it would be a shame if you ha been put off for life.

:o

Sorry to say this, but your mom was a totally insensitive and dysfunctional mother. She should have made you feel good about pleasure

Lol don't be sorry. I already knew that. She was an abusive drunk who was scared of her own sexuality, so not surprised she took her insecurities and hate towards herself out on me.

You are very understanding of her life and I congratulate you for dealing with her failures in such a positive way.

Boy, it seems to me that you were sexually aware at a very young age. Funny, I think I was maybe 13 before I first ***********.

u brought back memories of my first times doing it. thks

It's perfectly natural!

Everybody did it and still do to a degree. Its a shame parents make their kids feel its dirty. They too would have done it, its only natural. Self pleasure is a way to release built up tension, especially if you are lacking affection from your partner. Dont get me wrong sex is best but there is a time for self pleasure too

It is good to see a woman who enjoys ************ herself. ;)

I truly understand this
Mxx

I bet your mom had touched herself/*********** at least once in HER life. LOL!

I've caught her :/ LMAO

LMAO! That is too funny. Did you tell anyone about her ************?

Yes lol

What did the person or persons say then? LOL!

They busted out laughing with me :D

That is too funny. What did your mom say?

If I was caught ************ I'd say, "It's my ****, I can play with it as long and as fast as I want to". LMAO!

OH dear god hahahaha and my mom said nothing, except the time I caught her watching Lesbians on HBO and she turned off the cable box and it went on the grey fuzziness, and then she turned it back on when I was at the fridge and she was like "oh my god what is this, disgusting" and it's like ***** I know you were watching it :P But then again the weirder thing was when I caught her watching a VHS on her tv, and she had her hand down her pants...then I went back to see what it was and it was called "Analicious" i literally hit myself in the head and then proceeded to bust out laughing :P

OH MY! That is too funny. It sounds like your mom is or was a bit of a closet freak. I bet she had toys too huh?

Nah, shockingly enough lol She passed away almost two years ago now, and I've been cleaning that house out and I was shocked that i never found toys lol I was disappointed in a way, because that would have brightened my day, knowing my mom was a freak LMAO Since she made me feel guilty half the time for my bullshit lol

My mom's been gone nine year this month. At least you knew some of her freakish secrets.

LOL this is true :P
Sorry about your mother, does it get any easier with time after losing a parent?

It does get easier but I wish I could still call and talk to her. My dinner is ready now. It was fantastic chatting with you and if you wnat to chat more later just add me and when I see you online we can chat about life or whatever. Great meeting you and have a great evening. :-)

That's kind of what i figured. :) I miss my moms laugh.
Hope ya have a good dinner :) I just finished mine lol
Adding ya now :) I enjoyed chatting with you as well.

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I think many of us have had that experience. There were lots of things that I liked rubbing up against as a kid. (I still like to do that).

My great grandmother had an old, worn bannister...smooth but with some texture. IT felt great, but I was always afraid Id get caught.

Your mom sounds like a bit or more of a *****. Some people are tightly wound. That is their problem. Don't make it yours, hon. Thank you for this posting. Hugssssssssssssss...

It's not a problem, just was embarrassing growing up. But my mom was a *****. And her hobby was embarrassing me.

Are you as handy still ?

:-P I suppose I am lol

LOL.. Welcome to the club..!!! . First time I came, I came lots... I thought something was wrong and I'd have to get myself checked up..... I promised myself I won't do it again.. only next day I was at it.. ;)

Hahahah Nothing wrong with doing awesome stuff :P
I'd never stop, and to a point, if I ever get caught again, not gonna care. It's fun, so if someone doesn't like it they can bite me :D

When your mom caught you, how obvious was it? Were u under covers or laying naked and going at it? What sort of things did she say?

Cool story

When you did this at a friends house , did you friend know?

nope

Did you prefer it that way ?

yes

Do you find that it's better now if you feel you're in a safe haven ?

Yeap

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I'm sure it's a natural human behavior because I don'tthink anyone over 16can honestly deny doing it. If I got caught the embarrassment would be a fight from hell to deal with. I new a woman that caught her husband in the shower that lost all respect for him and lead to a divorce. Hmm.

I have a similar experience.

Being embarrassed that you got caught? Okay... I understand that. Being embarrassed that you were so young and didn't understand? Don't be. I don't think I truly understood until I was older... like 9 or 10. I first has sex when I was 12 with a 13 year old girl. I remember boys talking about ************... but I didn't really want to talk about it at the time. Actually... I don't think I talk about it now either. It's not something that pops up at the dinner table "Hey guys...I *********** like 3 times today!" You know...that just doesn't happen. So... don't be embarrassed. It is what it is. If ************ could be a career... I think we'd all have jobs!

Excellent, kiddies guilt is unfair on adult aspirations

Hope you have a healthier view about pleasuring yourself now

I do, not ashamed and do it quite often.

that is what happens when we discover our sexualtiy early.