I know it sounds stupid ..
I know it sounds ridiculous ..
I know it doesn't make sense ..
But It somehow makes me feel alive ..
Incredibly alive ..
But when I cant take it ..
It hurts so bad and leads me to death ..
I eat and throw up .. as if I didn't eat ..
I believe everyone with eating disorders knows..
That it's not a good thing ..
It's a disease but we are all in trapped ..