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I Starve Myself

Trap ...

By: DollyDiva
Written on May 10th, 2010

I know it sounds stupid ..

I know it sounds ridiculous ..

I know it doesn't make sense ..

But It somehow makes me feel alive ..

Incredibly alive ..

But when I cant take it ..

It hurts so bad and leads me to death ..

I eat and throw up .. as if I didn't eat ..

I believe everyone with eating disorders knows..

That it's not a good thing ..

It's a disease but we are all in trapped ..

By: DollyDiva
Age: 22-25 , Female
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  • DollyDiva
    DollyDiva

    I feel you Amy .. I truly do and I have been eating a lot lately, compared to last month, but I can't help it to stop this obsession when I gain weight. I starve again .. sometimes, I'm so sick of this **** and wonder why it happens to me .. If I could turn back time, I would never start it, but at the same time, I think I would start it anyway since I wasn't happy just enjoy eating but felt so stupid and weak instead,. You're not alone Amy .. Hugs,



    DolL~

    Jun 17, 2010
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  • amysangels
    amysangels

    the last few days i think ive been eatin more.i want to eat,i eat and then feel guilty again.its really like a circle.the other day i couldn believe a girl that told me she had overcome anorexia*shake head*coz i feel it wont ever end for me.. I feel ok and then again same..if i was alone idk if i even had 2nd thoughts n tried eating.but im always with 2voices-u r gonna get more fat-everyone sais u r thin,u know its how ana makes u see urself. Makes me want to scream sometimes.....

    Jun 16, 2010
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  • DollyDiva
    DollyDiva

    Hugs and Loves Amy ...

    May 30, 2010
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