I Want To Stop Bingeing!!!! I Need To Starve!

For years I have been stuck in this binge, purge, restrict, eat "healthy" cycle. I just want to be skinny! I don't care about anything else and I know how selfish that might sound. I'm disgusting! Repulsive! I need to get this fat off me now! I don't deserve food! I wish I could never eat again. Help!
2bperfect 2bperfect
22-25, F
1 Response Jan 8, 2013

You need love. You need to learn to love yourself and you need help to do that. I am 10 months into recovery after feeling like that for 14 years. This time a year ago I nearly killed myself before I went into treatment. I don't love my body and it's a hard road but nothing is worse than the hell you are in. Do you have health insurance? There is a place called monte Nido which saved my life.

No I don't have health insurance. I have looked into Renfew. I have been on a Binge Purge streak lately and I just want it to stop. I would love my body if i were thin.....I think. It's been 7 years since this started.