I Starve Myself

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By: deleted

Written on January 27th, 2013

Since Wednesday of last week I have been starving myself. But and so far I have love five lbs, bringing me that much closer to my 90 lbs goal. I have never been sk determined in my life. I need this. I need control and perfection. My mother has been making me eat dinner lately though. But I just puke it up right after... and tonight she made fries.. and my stomach felt like it was going to explode... but I Puked it up anyway.. I need to figure out a way to not eat w/o her catching on.. ehh.. oh well.. only 200 calories retained today.. and I can always work it off tomorrow .. I realize no one cares or is reading this.. but I like getting it out there anyway..
*Taytay

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17 responses

imbatmanshh

I know this may seem good right now but once you start there's no turning back. Trust me, I've been down that road and I regret every purge, every day I starved myself and every time I refused to eat. Once you go that far your body will just gain back more weight then you've lost when you actually start eating again. And if you never eat again your body will slowly digest itself to death...

Apr 3
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Effy1999

I too started Weds! Stay thin all your life because it is more challenging with each decade.
I eat 500 calories of food a day and liquid supplements high in protien so I don't lose my hair or nails.
Best of luck to you. I too have lost 5 lbs since Weds.

Jan 28
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Clover3

Babe I'm starting to do this to myself tomorrow and I need help x your so determined I want to be like you! please help me any advice? please xx

Jan 28
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AmandaSmith9

That's really unhealthy, being overweight is actually way more attractive than being bulimic/anorexic, and you're not in danger of that.

Jan 27
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pheonixtears21

I realize nothing I say or write will make a difference to you because I certainly never listened to any cautions when I began, but, you'll understand soon enough the terrible consequences of this path. When your family finds out, they will be crushed and any trust they had with you broken completely. Your body will begin to shut down and absorb its own essentials to keep you alive. What you won't understand until too late is that this path is the exact opposite of control. We all start out confident in ourselves, but in the end you are bound like a marionette doll to the growing monster of this disease. I hope, for your sake, that you realize this sooner than I did and can seek asylum from yourself.

Jan 27
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megg1939

this is really unhealthy. you can eat and lose weight. by eating the right food healthy food.... by starving yourself your setting your self up for all kinds of health issues.... by throwing up after eating your ruining your teeth.....
i hope you get through this hun

Jan 27
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- megg1939
  how is it worth it.... and when the acid eats away at your teeth from the gums.
  
  Jan 27
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- megg1939
  im not trying to be rude or anything but .... how is it worth anything.?
  
  Jan 27
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- megg1939
  no its not ok.....you weigh how much? your how tall....
  
  Jan 27
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- pheonixtears21
  Yeah, well, like I said. I can't expect to change your mind, but you posted that comment. If you were so sure, you wouldn't need any approval. I think you still have doubt. You don't know what you're getting into. I do. I've been through it and bear scars both mental and physical to give testimony.
  
  Jan 27
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- megg1939
  i have been there myself.its not worth it when you get older and your hair is falling out and your teeth arnt what they use to be the beauty you seen in being thinner isn't that beautiful.... you are beautiful .... no matter what size you are
  
  Jan 27
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- pheonixtears21
  I guess I can, but I really hope I will never have to.
  
  Jan 27
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- megg1939
  i wont be there to tell you i told you so... i wish i could help but its beyond anyone but yourself..... i wish you could change your mind but sense you wont .... best of luck on being healthy
  
  Jan 27
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- pheonixtears21
  Yes, but if you're so sure, why are you looking for justification from us? I think you are still in doubt. Try talking this out with someone in person, and if you can't reconcile your thoughts, do as you will and reap the results.
  
  Jan 27
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- AmandaSmith9
  It makes your breath bad, and runs down your esophagus, too.
  
  Jan 27
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- AmandaSmith9
  You're 5 ft 10 in ? GEEZ!!!!
  90 pounds is WAY to skinny for that, I'm 4 inches taller than that and i weigh 220 pounds without being fat, as you can see here
  http://d1qac74cbzjv2w.cloudfront.net/c/c3/c3f58f4d0911292/2aad5cbae26c95a/2aad5cbae26c95a_pr.jpg
  
  Jan 27
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- SkidooMakeup
  oh my! see she is 220 and GORGEOUS. I am 5'7 , and weigh 150 pounds, the only fat i have is in my tummy , i understand you will not listen to me but please at least read this. One of my best friends is shorter than me, much shorter... and we've known each other from birth to now. She says in middle school she was picked on for her weight issues, she was picked on for being ugly, and wether all of that is true? i dont know , maybe it is and maybe it was her excuse. but for almost 2 years now? she has been anorexic.. and no she ways 90 pounds.. does she look pretty YES. does she look Healthy NO. and she has been admitted to a hospital several times because of all of this. like i said i understand i cant change your mind in any way because i am also probably the most stubborn person you will ever talk to but i understand why you are doing this. I have thought MANY times about becoming bulimic/anorexic, but i thought about what i would say to family, and what i would say to friends, or boyfriend (if it ever came to that) and i realized how embarrassed i would be and how much people would look down at me. I don't think you would have the satisfactory of saying you lost all that weight from starving yourself as much as you would by saying you lost all that weight by working out and eating in proportions. please just take what i am saying into consideration, because the life you are choosing isnt healthy , or making you happy in the long run. i guess you wouldnt understand this until the consequences hit you. i understand you said your family hates you, but just maybe, just maybe, you dont need them to be happy , you need to make yourself happy without self harm . Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, yup , but that doesnt help when other people only see skin and bones. thank you for reading, love you, yourself and please listen to us, or consider it .
  ps. the friend i was telling you about realized i what i just told you and is now on an eating regimen and is becoming healthy ,
  dont let yourself come to that point.
  
  Jan 28
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