Putting The Past Away

It's come to this point, I know everyone tells me I shouldn't do this to myself it only makes it worse, but I feel like this is the only thing left. I'm tired of looking around and seeing everyone around me so much skinnier and prettier. They all have someone to care about them and tell them how beaeutiful they are and I want to be that girl. It' sad how far I brought myself. I'll be one hundred percent honest with everyone here, I'm overweight, way over weight. I'm sixteen, 5'4 and weigh 186 pounds. I don't know how I got myself to this point but I'm turning it around. Today was my first day and I haven't eaten a thing, the feeling is great. Your stomach gets that weird tight feeling. But it's a good feeling. I have a problem with my weight and I know it. My father has been catching on to what I've been doing. The last few days I've been eating less and less. He asks me why I'm not eating as much and all I say is my stomach hurts or I'm not hungry. He's always been the one to judge me, all throughout my chldhood he would bring my weight into one of our fights and make me end up crying in a ball in my room for hours at the insults he says. I'm changing from today, no matter what anyone has to say they will not change what I'm doing. I'm doing this for me, to be that pretty girl that everyone takes a second look at.