i starve my self because it is the only thing that makes me feel better since  cutting mself has lost the affects it used to have so not eating allows me to have control over something and the fact that when i am hungery and i hear my stomach rumble it makes me feel good that i know im not eating and am back in control of my life again. 

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4 Responses Mar 16, 2009

Can u help me become skinny please

its not quantity but quality of food that matters. you can have lettuce, cucumbers, tomatoes and get full or have i small thing of french fries for the same caloric benefit. you eat more fries, gain more fat, or you can get full off of less calories

I'm sorry you are in pain darling. I send you a big big hug. I wish to be able to take it away from you. It makes me cry to think of all the people who suffer needlessly, mainly because of others who have not done their "job", either parenting, or whatever. So much goes back to that. That makes parenting stressful because you know how important your behaviors are for your children, and you don't want to mess them up. Love to you. You want to write to me?

I know how you feel. I used to cut, but that stopped a while ago...I guess you could say it also lost it's effect for me as well. We are in the same boat, hun. Add me if you like and be strong..