I'm A Child

So I guess I'm in the adult world at the moment. I feel so left out. I feel like a little girl inside someone who looks older. In a meeting the other day I wanted to turn to the person next to me and makes jokes about the speaker, like a cheeky school girl would, but I know that's not appropriate anymore. I want to go out on the swings. I want to throw things around the office, I want to be able to laugh whenever I want to. I want to run around. I feel so stupid, I don't know what to do in this adult world, everyone seems so grown up and smart, then there's me.

Mediocre Mediocre
22-25, F
7 Responses Mar 8, 2010

I feel fear when I think about trying to function, and want to run away when people talk of mortgages and earning money. It's not in my capacity to live away from home as I tried it a couple of times and was overwhelmed by the 'nothingness' to be filled and my inability to cope. Sometimes I feel angry I have to be here and can't simply go to sleep and not wake up. It feels too vulnerable to be thinking in terms of gentle fawns in a forest like a Disney film.

Your profile says you are somewhere between the age of 18 and 21, I think you are still allowed to act childish, especially if you are only 18... I think you should let yourself act childish sometimes and enjoy being young. I have known women who are 30 and still act like children, my ex-girlfriends mother was in her late 40's and still acted like a child, so I think you are okay. Don't be in a hurry to grow up it will happen and a lot faster than you think, I know that sounds cliche and it seems like it is a long way off right now but when you get there it will seem like it happened overnight.

Hang in there... Always keep your eyes and ears open for new opportunities and things to learn. There's a lot to learn in the world... you just need to know when to stop and look :)

The day you wake up with an adult mentality is a sad day indeed. Most people are still childish, being an adult is just an act they put on cus there's stuff they've gotta get done and nuthin would ever get done if we all just did what we really wanted to. Just wing it like everyone else and indulge you're inner child when you can - some of the most childish people i know are in their 40's...

I wonder if we ever will? will we remain this way? or just suddenly one day wake up with an adult mentality?

And then there's me too. Looking around at others, I sometimes don't feel "grown up", even though I've lived on my own since I was 17 and am a supervisor at work of people twice my age. I just don't feel like a full-fledged adult sometimes.

Mediocre,<br />
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I'm in my 30s and I still don't know anything about mortgages or some financial lingo. I don't even drive, so I don't know of anything that someone says about that. So otherwise, I too am a child trapped in an adult body. <br />
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Did I mention that I still live with mom and dad. I have my mother's brain in a sense because she doesn't know much about money herself (Even though she tries to fake it).