I Should Know Better....

I've moved on.....married...with my little family
I still can't get over the pain that my ex caused me....

We were together for 10 years 
I should have left long before then. 
I wanted things to work out so badly.....

But I met someone who actually appreciated me and made me feel good about myself.

I saw on facebook a couple weeks ago his girlfriend posting pictures of her showing off this ring.....a total like **** you look on her face
and then the other day my old friends tagged in her bachlorette party pictures....with the caption "i love these ladies"

still can't help to think that it should have been me.

I try to think of all the bad things he put me through and how theyre all her problems now.
I just can't get over it. 
he told me "i would marry you if you lost some weight"
i stopped eating and lost weight and still got cheated on and treated like crap....

did i mention his new girl looks like me?

Sometimes I miss my old life
I need to remember that I wasnt truly happy
sweetsie sweetsie
26-30, F
2 Responses Feb 27, 2012

You are mourning your dream of what you wished it was, not the reality. Appreciate what you have, the man who loves you and the family you are forging.<br />
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What ifs and might have beens, are dreams that never were true. <br />
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Look to you future, not to you past. You have friends that care for you and a family that loves you.<br />
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I hope you find the peace you deserve.

He sounds verbally abusive. You are better off....you are mourning what COULD have been...not what WOULD have been.<br />
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Onward. All shall be well. <3