I'm Going To Get Over Her Completely

My first love is my closest friend.

I've done a lot of stupid things when I was younger, but falling in love with her of all people was the worst mistake ever.

She's an amazing girl, I don't think anything will ever change my mind about that, but that's the problem. She's beautiful and amazing and other people think so too. She tells me about all these people that ask her out, and I get jealous over a girl that isn't even mine.

I've loved her since grade 7, and it's been two years since then. I don't think I'll be able to handle any more sleepless nights dissecting everything she says in the vain hope that she might like me back or the days of pretending to be completely fine with her new boyfriend just so she won't feel bad so I'm going to make sure that I get over her. Soon.

I've been making progress recently and now I can get through a day without looking at my phone and automatically thinking of her, or having a conversation with her that doesn't end in tears for me. I can even laugh at her jokes without thinking anything like, "Damn, I really love her". So I guess that's a good sign :)
TrafalgarLaw TrafalgarLaw
18-21, F
Nov 29, 2012