That Smile

I just ache for him. Never have I ever just ached to be near someone, to touch them in the simplest and even innocent way. Sure I've wanted to touch people. I've longed for them and lusted for them, and missed them. I've never ached for someone. Just to see their smile, and the little crinkles by his eyes. I can see that so clear. Not the fake smile, the real one. If I close my eyes I can see it and I find it comforting.

I don't know if that smile is for me. That's good but if it's for her that's ok too, because that smile is real and that means that he's happy and it doesn't matter WHY he's happy and that makes me smile. and that's a real smile too. just thinking of him happy soothes that ache.

I guess I do love him enough to let him go.
insane000illusions insane000illusions
26-30, F
2 Responses May 14, 2012

I feel exactly the same way. I love her enough to be silent and still, whatever comes....will. goodbye my love.

I understand, it's hard but sometimes there isn't anything else to do

:(

Don't be sad. Letting go isn't a bad thing, its a necessary thing