He Is Still My Everything..

So...I fell in love with a boy, not just any boy though. At first I thought he was this greasy skater. I didn't know anything about him but when I first saw him something fluttered. When someone would bring just his name up I'd get that warm fuzzy feeling in my chest, sometimes it felt like my heart was about to leap out of my chest. When anyone would bring up anything about him I'd get that fuzzy feeling.

Like Everyone; he had his flaws, I pointed each and every one out in my mind but none of them bothered me. I thought and saw him as perfect. He is perfect.

I was lucky enough over the past four years to call him my friend, boyfriend, and now a close friend. I had learned a lot about him over the years. I had watched him go through so much.

I always had told him I was there for him, but I was never the first person he'd come to, I was probably the last.
When I'd spot cuts on his arm, I'd ask him "why?" and he'd look at me and say "I don't know" It was sad to know that I couldn't do anything to help him. I was watching him slowly kill himself. It really hurt to watch what he had to go through.

Maybe I wasn't the first one he'd want to talk with about feelings, but I was the first one he'd come to when he wanted food. That's one of the biggest things we have in common': Food. We'd usually end up pigging out at my house or go and buy something we both liked and shared it. He'd end up eating the best part and I'd curse at him and act mad and he'd just laugh and tell me I should have ate it first if I wanted it so bad. I never minded that he would eat the good part, I enjoyed his presence.

I had been in some pretty bad situations with him. One guys had stole his sweater right off him at knife point, and quite a few other things, the worst was when some guys had tried to hit us with their car and came after us to kill him. We still do not know why and we didn't know why they were, all we knew is they wanted him dead and he had done nothing wrong. We got split up but after the guys had left I went out searching which put my life in danger because they came back and saw me.

I would do anything for him. I have done pretty much everything for him. Just being around him made everything better. He was someone who didn't drag me down with drama, he never had anything negative to say that would bother me......

4 years I have watched him be happy, be sad, laugh, cry, fall for other girls, get hurt, go through depression, hurt himself, found cuts on his arms, but no matter what: I had always been there if he needed anyone. He's someone I wish I could spend the rest of my life with.
ImJustDifferent98 ImJustDifferent98
13-15, F
Dec 4, 2012