Sept 11

I can remember having my husband wake me up and tell me i needed to watch TV. and then the TV people said that out schools were also a target and because we have the port of Houston that that might also be a target and to be careful when going outside. then they talked about Washington's plane going down.I remember taking off like a bullet to pick up my kids from school and telling myself, if this is the end I want us all to be together when we go.

I can still remember how they played the video over and over again. I became numb to what the news reporters were saying. My hangover only made it worse. I promised myself I would stop drinking but then my promise was broken that same night. I promised my self I'd stop alot back then. I wish i could remember what other people were feeling back then, I just remember being selfish and thinking only about myself.