Still Good Friends

A little more than a month now my bf while living in another state thousands of miles apart told me we should consider ourselves as broken up. He's been going through a difficult time realizing that our relationship is not what he wants right now and his life is going through a big change and the stress of it has been difficult to cope with along with dealing with what's in our future together. So at first I thought he just wanted to put our relationship's future on the back burner till he could figure out what his plans for his own life is going to be.I thought we still had a chance but through conversations he's been trying to let me go and doesn't want me to hang onto the idea of us together. I have tried to understand where he's coming from but I have been angry and dissappointed that he has given up on our relationship. After a month in another state I've been in the process of healing the pain and loss of our future.
Then I come home to emails and I'm taken back to the feeling of truly caring about him once again. I don't feel a heavy obligated feeling anymore and it's lighter but I know I still care about being in his life. It's like a book that I can't quite put down, I'm invested and I like knowing what's going on in his life still. Not in love, it's just a phase I'm going through and I think it's part of the transition of becoming friends as I once thought I wouldn't be able to do before.
Owleeeeease7 Owleeeeease7
36-40, F
Sep 23, 2012