I Still Think About Him
Yeah i still think about him. But i don't cry anymore. I'm not upset or devastated anymore. I'm so glad i've got to this stage of getting over him. But he was still a big part of my life. It's been 6 months and i still think about him everyday. I wonder what he's up to. We used to talk all the time but we haven't for a long time. It was a bad relationship and it ended when he moved from brisbane, australia to trinidad. I had to say goodbye. And while the whole time i knew it was what had to be done, and that it'd be good for me because he was a pig, it truly did devastate me. I cried loudly, i cried non-stop. I constantly had that sick feeling in my stomach because i was in love and wanted him beyond what words can explain. It made me sick to the stomach. And i wasted an unimaginable amount of tears on him. Matter fact i got a little tear now just writing about it. But more to the point, i got through the stages of heartbreak. I got through the incredible sadness, i got through the severe rage and vengeful thoughts, and now i have come to terms with everything in such a mature way, i really am proud of myself. I'm not bitter. And it feels really good. I wonder when i'll stop thinking about him all together?
