It's Been 9 Years...

So why is it that 9 years has passed but you are still in my thoughts?i look at your family pix on facebook and i am sad. i know i dont want to be with you...but the pain of the love we once shared still lingers in my heart. You were so young that's why I let you go. I really wanted you to live the life and not have to deal with an "older woman with baggage (a child)" but I just wanted to really say that I am thinking of you tonight. Some days aren't as bad as others, but days like i'm about to lay in bed with the man I've been with for 12 years...I still think of you.

69venus 69venus
31-35, F
2 Responses Sep 28, 2009

Thanks for that...but I don't want to talk to him. His wife is totally controlling and much older than I am too. hehehehe. So he married someone 10 years older than him, and she controls him. He likes that, I guess. Today is a new day and I'm not thinking so much about him as I was last night. We have no connection to each other. We live in seperate continents...which is a good thing. :D So it's time I live Tuesday! :D

Maybe you should have a nostalgic chat with this person, nothing intrusive or deep, but simply a friendly reconnection or rediscovering of them that might help you get closure?