First was my mum, i was 5 or 6, she was standing on the top floor window about to jump out, i told her not to and she didn't but only for another couple of minutes, didn't work out, she jumped and seriously did her back in. Eight years later she killed herself by drowning. Next one was an ex boyfriend who nearly proceeded to slash his face with a chunk of glass, he got slightly hurt but i ended up in hospital with my hand sliced/severed trying to stop him and having stitches. Next was a suicidal friend whom i loved very dearly and if people took her seriously she'd still be alive now. I tried to talk her out of it, but her boyfriend came home one day to find her hung at the top of the stairs. Very morbid i know. I might not sound bothered but when youv'e seen some nasty s***, you become immune to it.