After a sad incident, I totally lost the je ne sais quoi, the appreciation, the "love" (??) I had for my best friend. I barely spoke to her after that (blame it on school, blame it on schedules, there's a plethora of excuses)...I just don't trust her the way I used to.
I studied abroad and she seemed so excited to have me come back...I figured, you know, relationships require both people to work hard in building it. Maybe I'll give it another shot and see where this new beginning could take us...
We've gone nowhere. She has had a boyfriend for five years now, and I just realized (now it's loud and clear) that her life revolves around him. I have barely seen her since I have been back (four months now)...and she left for a trip for a month and didn't even call to say bye or hello once she was back.
Bad series of unfortunate events.. My grandpa passed away. I didn't even tell her, but she found out and came to the funeral. I did not want her there. I didn't. It was darn AWKWARD...And I didn't need her there.
A week later she got really sick and had to stay at the hospital for a week. She texted me...and asked me to go see her... AWKWARD. Small talk. Good bye. I haven't seen her since then...and I don't want to.
I am not a big fan of awkward moments, but I also cant confront her yet...I don't know what to say. How do you face the fact that our relationship is completely malfunctional and broken?