School Constitutes Work, Right?

I attend a university where I receive financial aid. I'm required to maintain a certain G.P.A. to keep my aid in good standing. However, the stress of the high G.P.A. can really toll on my personal relationships. Nonetheless, it's really the only way that I can keep going to college. I simply cannot afford high tution rates.

In the process of making "the grade," which by the way is not easy for me. I'm one of those people who really has to work at something. I usually wind up having no life, or missing out on fun opportunities. Sometimes I feel as if the best parts of my life are slipping right under me, and before I know it I'll be an old lady wondering where all the time has went. Yet, I keep on keeping on. Why? Well, my mother has always told me that anything that is worth anything in life is usually not easy, but sometimes I wonder what the hell I'm doing all this for.

I've tried to maintain a couple of romantic relationships, but they've eventually all failed. The guys I've dated usually say that I never make enough time for them, or that they feel as if I don't prioritize them. In a sense, they are right. I will put school before them, but I feel end up feeling lonely and selfish about it.

The guy that I dated last semester, I really liked. You know, I may have even loved him. However, I was constantly angering him by not spending enough time with him. I probably could have spent more time with him, and now I wish I would have, but I always let my studies take over me.

How much do we lose in the process of a gain? I wish I could find someone who understand me, but I know that is probably way too much to ask. Is it possible to have a relationship when trying to ensure your own success?