Just Myself

Just to be me and be accepted that way would be a dream.  To be happy in my own skin and my enviroment would be heaven to me.  For most of my life I've struggled with happiness.  I don't know if I really ever knew the definition or what it actually is, but I've searched to find for years and always came up empty handed.  Till recently My personal experience with happiness does not come from with out myself, but from within.  It's all about acceptance.  accepting myself for whom I am and believe and have faith that I'm a good person.  It doesn't hurt to change myself, but in a healthy way that's for me not others.  I was never happy with the way I looked and was jealouy of other women, because I thought they always looked better.  I was always trying to get the attention of men.  And always wanted to be liked, but in the real world that's not possible or real.  That's when I had to accept that if A man or person liked or even loved me they loved me for the way I am.  And for others to love or even like me I had to feel this way towards myself.  I love the fashion and makeup world and like to keep up with the trends, but now I get into it because I like it or interested not to impress someone. so, what do I say "To thine ownself be true."

ann9265 ann9265
41-45, F
1 Response Feb 16, 2010

wow..It's amazing..the way u presented abt you..I wish u a happy and healthy life