Lost AllI used meth full on for the past 2 years. I thought i was strong enough to never let a drug controll my life. I was very wrong. It took ahold of my life bigtime. I hate that pipe but love it at the same time. Even after being off it for a mth. I had a beautiful life. Three boys 12, 6 and 2years old. I owned my house . Owned a brand new car. Didnt owe money. Then bang my addiction started to get out of controll and i didnt know it untill i lost everything. Including my darling boys. I worked hard all my life for what i had and each time i sold something to score or to feed the kids because all my pay went on meth, I still played the blame game. Things hit rock bottomwhen i got the boys dad to look after them so i could try and get ok then he took off with them. I would never have left mu babies with him if my mind wasnt so ****** from drugs. I sold everything i own my house,car,pricless keepsakes and spent all my savings. My children have been missing for 3 mths because of the stupid decisions iv made on meth. Iv been arrested for having meth on me. I had been off it and thought why not get on just once more? Iv been so good. I ended up in an interview room all night. Also lost 500 bucks. That money could have gone on my kids. When will i learn? I miss my kids so much i cant breath some days. I wish meth didnt exist.
lysa351 31-35, F 3 Responses 1 Sep 22, 2012