No Addicts Are Happy, They Only Pretend.There is no such thing as happiness when you are an addict. You can put on a happy face and have fun with your friends, but none of it is real. Never feeling normal again is the price you will always have to pay.
I have done the same routine for so long that I don't think there is anything I can do to ever be better again. For over a decade now my life has revolved around drugs and alcohol, and for someone who is only 27 years old...well it's pretty sad.
I haven't used heroin in any form in a few months, and haven't stuck a needle in my arm in about 6 months. At the end of the day though it really doesn't matter, the drinking and cocaine use will most likely ever end. Even smoking weed seems like a problem anymore.
I just want to be better again. Have a real relationship, a normal relationship, and not have to feel so sad and pathetic anymore. I just don't think I have what it takes to revamp my life after all this time. I feel that there is n hope and this will be my ultimate demise.