One Drink. Always Ends Up...

Never thought it took control of my life. Im a teenager. And i like to party alot. At first i hated alcohol!! I hated it!! And now like i only drank when my dad said it was okay, but i steal it from him now...it started at parties i would drink to much and pass out...than it would escalte to me drinking alot a day. But i could still control it. And than i drink everyday and i pass out. When i wake up i steal alcohol from my dad to drink it and get drunk...i sneak my alcohol into school sometimes, but mos tof the time i don't go because i'm to drunk to get up. My dad doesnt know htis because im always passed out and he leaves for work before i ever even get outa bed to get ready for school. I drink liquor from the bottle. I can't stop. I LOVE IT!! it makes me feel so good. Being a alcoholic runs in my whole family. I htink about it all day everyday. If i stop i get mad and frustrated and throw up. I love it. Sometimes i will get it from alot of my 21 year old friends...but sometimes i dont have enough money to do it, so i usually give them something in return as in like kissing, oral. etc. but that almost never happens...i don't want to be this way, but i can't help it..and nobody is here to help me and guide me through and support...
XxxLaurenBugXxx XxxLaurenBugXxx
13-15, F
1 Response May 20, 2012

You are so young ... please, get help.