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I Have One Life And God Made Me Ugly

It sucks being ugly
Like f-ing ugly
People hate you
People judge you

Every birthday, i prayed
I begged, i cried
I go on all fours
I told God
I just wanted to be pretty

Days passed, years went
But I am stuck in this ugly body
I want to free my soul
I hate living in this ugly cage
that God gave me

I stared at other girls
Gorgeous hair flipping, thin, slender bodies
Perfectly-sculpted face
And thought
Just maybe, maybe...
God doesn't love me as much
fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F 119 Responses Mar 11, 2011

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i was informed when i was very young that i was on the wrong side of creation, i hated public gatherings even now, i suffered terribly because of emotional abuse from teachers and class mates, most people told me that i must go to church, i later realised that they were sorry for me, i went to church and became happier, but things changed again, the pastor picked me up and plainly said that god created us for different purposes and told fellowshippers that even people as ugly as me are god's children, people laughed, that was the last day i attended church, i was an example, being ugly destroys self image, later on my skin erupted with serious acne, at work i have been on the same salary for more than 15 years, people get promoted, young handsome guys, but i am unable to negotiate anything as my ugliness makes me stink and i always meet hostility from my young bosses. I am just waiting to die and leave this useless life, i am now over 40 and has hated my growing up years, sometimes i just wake up in th middle of the night and curse the day i was born and i feel sad for the ugly young ones because there is a bumpy road ahead, people may say beauty is inward, but that is not true.

Not true, God does love you more than you will ever know or understand. Ugly Is just another term for different face. I go through this everyday with myself, I struggle deeply to love an accept myself but it's hard. I haft to literally just say **** it, an not going to lie it has made me a bitter arrogant ******* but in a way people respect me a lil more an get outta my way cuz all the bullying an anger that I held within has made an impulsive person, like in a sense to where someone looked at me wrong I wanted to rip their effin jugular out, buuuut I can't do that or else I'll go to jail lol. I know I'm ugly as **** n im rly small n skinny, have a skinny face n semi big nose, no one takes me seriously n I get treated differently as opposed to someone good looking who says the same funny thing I do an they get all the laughs n I get ignored. Idk if this has helped but really you need to put on a "shield/front" cuss a lil more be more aggressive n let people know u own the ****** floor n they need to back off before you make them back off...trust me I'm a hothead n I hate mean rude people so I give it right back an I intensify it by 100. Pretty much being nice while being "ugly" will not help you unless you get into some church groups or at home jobs. So be a jerk n b snotty, can't hurt your face more than what damage you think you already have.

don't be so tough on uerself.... Noone is perfect, believe me...!

Physical beauty is just that! Physical. Inner beauty is what's important!

...if you ever need to talk, leave a message - I've never had issues that you've experienced, but I've 'looked in' from the outside and felt the pain that people have because of a disability, looks, mental health etc etc

??? I just looked at your pic and you look GREAT..??

You are a beautiful person. God looks at your heart not your features. I am trying to get over the same thing you are going through.

I'd be willing to bet you aren't as bad as you think you are. You are your own worst enemy

Hey, God loves you so much that he gave you a chance to live with him in eternity if you only accept him through his son Jesus Christ. Who in fact died on the cross for yours and mine sins. If that is not love i dont know what is. And to be fair The way we come up is through our genetics, we all look like our parents and i am sure you love your parents dont you :) i am sure they look nice and so do you!

Where are you from ?

bbw the second b is beautiful

huh?

big beautiful woman . bbw

ok...i am not fat. just ugly. thanks

oh sorry, missed that.

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Be yourself. No one else can do it for you/

I'm 51, never had a date, always judged a geek or nerd just because I wear glasses....women putting me down day after day and still they do it today. They see me as weak because I'm not a huge mound of muscle, even though I'm athletic and study martial arts and in rather great shape for a 51 year old.I'm not flabby or sagging, not weak and still I'm judged as being weak and unable to defend myself or others....WHY? because I wear glasses.......I'm also deemed ugly for the same reason....glasses......they say "there's some one for everyone...." Well you can't prove that by me.......If that is God's love for me,I sure don't wanting him hating me. How can a loving God allow anyone to remain single their whole life, to be ridiculed the way I am JUST because I wear glasses? Go figure.

girls should be judged by men. they are always in generosity towards themselves.

I hate the word 'ugly'. There is something attractive about everyone.

Hey you should never feel like this way. Everybody was made in god's image. You should never judge someone based on appearances, what really counts is inner beauty, what sort of person you are. That's what's going to keep a lasting relationship, not skin deep beauty. You be true to yourself and try and be a better person everyday and that will show through.

I know. Bt is it wrong to wish that I am pretty?

No it's not wrong, but everybody is pretty in their own way. But your inner beauty will always come through once your outer beauty wears thin.

Wow - this is one hell of a statement - so sad that you feel like this - I hope you learn how to accept yourself for what you are. People who judge purely on appearances alone are themselves ugly. Every living person has the right to be on this planet regardless of how society says they should look. There are always going to be beautiful people but these are in the minority. Accept yourself and allow others to accept you for you. You will have qualities that others will need - just allow them to get in.

lol minority? i can just go shopping in the mall and see hundreds of gorgeous girls and just think, why am i not one of them. it's a crippling feeling.

Suppose I am in Scotland. If you think your bad you need to visit here

ok i will...lol.

I know what you are feeling!

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add me up please....

I know this post is old, and I hope things have improved for you. I just wanted to say that you wrote my feelings about myself more beautifully than I ever could.

I would love to see a pic of you and tell you what I think ...if you would like my honest opinion...?

no its ok

Lol... you can't be that ugly then

Yeah. God hates me to. To late I learned, he who loves his lady, for she is fair, and pleasing to the eye. So loves himself, not her. Learn this early. Chances are your not so ugly as you think you are. Someday someone will find you beautiful. Until then, tell em all to go **** themselves. Their loss.

people say it's what is inside that matters & that is true; however, being pretty attracts others more easily, so being ugly does not help, with initial attraction. But there are ways around that. A sweet smile, a happy laugh, sparkle in the eyes, a surprise touch... I once knew a lady who was fairly "plain." She, though, had sparkling eyes and once looked at, required a double-take and then seeing her smile, hearing her voice made up for all the rest. She was flat-chested, not someone most men would look at, but when I looked at her, everyone else in the room disappeared. You could have paraded the most beautiful women in front of me, naked, and I would have said, excuse me as I made my way to be near her. She captured my heart with her eyes and laugh and her thoughts. Once lost within her eyes and holding her withing my arms, nothing else matters. So, don't give up. Someone will see you and who you are and respond with loving you and be lost within your heart. Being thankful to have found you.

Hi fuglygirlonthebench
God is an unwelcome guest at the feast of life imho. Tuck in and enjoy life.
Best wishes
:)

Hey you, its not the outer appearance that matters anyway, that's only skin deep..its what's in the heart that matters, personality, and how someone treats others. A lot of women who look good on the outer appearance have A wicked ugly heart and mind, in my opinion that makes them ugly on the outside too, no matter how attractive they may look.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, cutie. <3

All struggle with body image. How bad could it be?

I am getting better.

oh how bad could it be? u think it's stupid but when u're in it u can go depressed over it.

Just remember that everyone gets old, and soon those girls will be ugly too. Who you are comes from the heart. I myself am ugly and I can't wait till i see all the people that got better genes then me shrivel up, and look like ****, so I can laugh at them and show them no remorse. Looks don't count.

message me

you r beautiful in heart..

Lots of guys, like me, like fat girls

i am not fat.just ugly.

Everyone has something truly beautiful about them. Until you see beauty in yourself no one else will see it. Love yourself. See your beauty. Its there. I promise.

You are loved

Love a woman that embraces being different

You are likely a far lovelier young woman than you realize. You just need to give yourself half a chance and quit comparing yourself to those around you.

every person is beautiful in his/her own way,I don't even care about external beauty

Every woman is pretty in their own way.
So dont worry

I wish I could put my arms around you and reassure you that you are a lovely precious princess

you are still young....you will learn to love yourself...and others will to... happens alll the time...keep your chin up!!

I'm sure that's not true beauty is in the eye of the beholder x

I have what is called, "body dismorphia." It's haunted me much of my life. It's a horrible thing. There are few people anywhere that can understand what it is like. I know your pain.

I'm actually pretty curious what you look like now. Because I find it nearly impossible to have confidence in myself. So I wonder if it's more in my head or not. It might be the same for you. After all looks don't mean much. I mean people treat you differently, but people are **** regardless. @__@

And well online people don't treat you differently because of your looks since people often get to know you at least somewhat before they know what you look like

Don't let the perceptions of people define who you are. As you get older you will see looks are superficial. You can lose weight. But remember character is what shines through in the end....just say **** it. Present yourself as well as you can and grow. There are a lot of mean spirited people out there DO NOT let them **** with your head. Be strong, protect your heart!

Ugly comes from within. I don't care what you look like, it's your soul I'm after.lol!! No,I'm not the devil,just someone who is more interested in how people think,and behave,than how they look. Of course I'm not going to lie,a pretty face and a slim ankle can certainly turn my head,but no more so than a quick wit,and sincere heart. I'm not going to flatter you with flowery comments ,because..well, because I don't really know you. I do know that the only ugly people are those who have blackened souls,and care about no one,and feel nothing . Ugly is predjudice,descrimintion,cruelty,abuse,violence,hatred and contempt. Ugly is many things,but it's not a term to describe any person who has a heart and soul and feelings. You certainly seem to have all three,and therfore,without ever laying eyes on you,I can not imagine you ugly,and I imagine you might be the only one who does see yourself exactly that way. You're just looking about it all wrong,but don't feel alone.....most of us do.

wow

why...u are impressed i look ugly?

:( I am sorry you feel the way you do about yourself. I have no clue what you look like and could careless. What I read here is from a beautiful person. Someone who has a heart and cares so much. I wish I could help you see what I see and not worry so much about the exterior.

thank u.

You are so very welcome. :-)

I so agree. I hate God

I never thought that I was anything to look at much either, but I gained a little confidence as I got older and dated more and more then more recently I noticed that I have gotten old somehow, it was like overnight! I swear I never noticed the changes much as they were happening. I just woke up one day and realized I had somehow traded what I had gotten used to for gray thinning hair, wrinkled skin with age spots and eczema, a pot belly with handles, loads of scars, I've lost all my teeth and my skin has turned so white that I practically glow in the dark, I used to be so tan!

Age and disease has taken it's toll, I don't know who that is looking back at me in the mirror anymore! So strange what time has done to my appearance! I can't help but think that it must have a lot to do with perception, because my children and my grandchildren seem to recognize me and are still generally happy to see me! Same with my animals, they all seem to understand that I'm still the same person they've come to know!
I've noticed something else too, a smile can really change how people act towards me and if I'm really honest I guess I do that with others too! I've often noticed that a simple smile can alter ones looks a great deal! Look around and see if you don't notice the same thing. Maybe, just maybe God loves us enough to challenge our perception and protect us from a life of wondering if others really like us for who we are and not because of how we look on the outside.
Put a smile on your face and see how others perceive you and act towards you. If nothing else it will make them wonder what your thinking!
Bodhi-

God doesn't make ugly. Everyone is beautiful in someone's eyes.

No....God makes ugly, and when he does, it's so he can watch and laugh.

Well I guess that means he will start laughing at you when you turn 40.

He already had started laughing, as soon as I was born.

*sigh*

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I feel 4 u...the world has become so body conscious that its really gone crazy...in Roman times, women with curves were considered sex symbols")

Personally I would be interested in meeting you, or at the very least, seeing a picture of you. Some of the most beautiful people I know of truly believe they are "fugly". I don't mean this to sound creepy or anything like that. You sound like my kind of lady after reading some of your stuff..... Just saying....

my stuff are all sad ones....i am wrecked. :(

Once again....not meaning to sound creepy, but I'm betting you are as beautiful on the outside as you are on the inside.. You sound like you really need someone to give you a huge hug and prove to you that you really do matter a lot more than you think....

Not wrecked but artistic and unique. I had a friend that was born with a severe birth defect. There were times she wanted to be "beautiful" but for the most part had courage and confidence. She was so darned cute that everyone loved her. Don't down yourself. Love yourself. No one will love you like the love of God and self. I bet you are a very beautiful person.

I want to think that I am really unique. I guy once said that but he was a jerk and to him unique means lame/different from the norm/plain weird and disgusting. :(

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What some people find beautiful other people find ugly, its a personal taste. And what you see in magazines is the distorted view from a small group off people. Its just a pity that so many young people believe the nonsense that is written in them. beauty comes from the inside.
You have probably heard this a 100 times but it is true.
And even if outer beauty is not your strongest feature, concentrate on the talents you have.
You seem to have a talent for writing.
Think this over and start believing in yourself
I am sure there is a beautiful girl in there waiting to come out.

every girl is pretty on their on..

I hope for you that by now you'll have met, seen and can recognize who or what is ugly. Hollywood's two sex symbols got married and they broke-up the relationship. They both have the glamorous looks, body and life style that you seems to yearn for, but they got divorced. Then having not those outer things that you punish yourself for not having does not make you qualify as UGLY. What qualified them as ugly, that they would no longer want to be together is - Poor / Weak Character. If you continue on this journey then you'll allow ugliness to take you over then you will become UGLY. It feeds upon ungratefulness, poor values, deception, delusions and bitterness thus producing Weak Character - Being UGLY.

who are those sex symbols?

God loves you the way you are. He created you, and that makes you beautiful. Think about that.

I am going through some self-perception problems myself and I know how difficult it is to deal with.
Ok I have to admit I don't know if your's is a self-perception problem. If not, Great...
But for me, it used to bother me what other people think about me, because I am no looker myself.
I always wished I could be a little taller, or more buffed up you know to make up for my ugliness.
But over time I think I grew an armor. I think when you accept things for what they are, then other people accept you too.
I guess self acceptance is the first step.
Yes I have to deal with the fact that I wont be instantly liked and people are going to judge me, so for a while I tried to make up for it with arrogance. That didn't work because I am not an arrogant person by nature. Then somehow the arrogance got replaced with humility and peace and love over time. Because I saw people with more problems than me swinging it out of the park, and that was quite inspirational.
I still go back and forth however.
There are good days and bad days.
It takes just one offhanded comment in bad taste to put up my shields and go on the defensive.
It really hurts when these comments are from people who you think are your friends, but I have found that its very important to end toxic friendships and also the most difficult to get out of them.
I think looks are not important for a friendship. What matters is who the person is on the inside.
If we look at it logically, it's not in my control that I am less pretty than some people.
My guess and that is based on my experience so far is that I have to try hard and focus on my strengths.
So what if you are not as pretty as some people, you are here living your life and that's what matters.
You can't let what other people think bother you.
Its hard but you will have to try.
And lastly please have a look at the video of Lizzie Velasquez, whose story has been truly inspirational.
You might have watched it already, I don't know.

I am sorry if I have come across as an ***, and I know I can never truly understand what you feel, but I can do my best to empathize ...

You're really sweet and real. I think you are beautiful. Thanks.

Well, when I read your story, I really thought you are beautiful too....

God love you so he create you even though you are ugly or i am ugly it doesn't mean that God hates you neither me.
Life is short so lets just live life happily share with love and care,and stay healthy for sure beauty lies in the eyes not in the heart...Appreciate yourself of what you are cause you are precious to GOD,Family,friends and your soul mate...never feel shamed of what your friend treat or say forgive them they are innocent,one day or rather they will understand themselves.......Live and let live,forgive and forget.......

If only everyone thinks like you Andrew

They will if they are human beings

haven;t met nice people for years

then you need to visit India :)

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Fat doesn't make u ugly it's what's inside u that make people ugly please add

i am FREAKING HOT. i feel sorry for you ugly people. you have my deepest, warmest, heartfelt sympathy. :(

what is wrong with people like you , people needing some support and you trash them ! if i still believed in religion im sure you would have a special place in hell !

What is the matter with you?
Either you are trolling or you think making such snide,offhand, "Different from the crowd" comments make you cool.
Stop inflicting people with your "coolness".
Don't you have any empathy?
Can't you at least think twice before posting such drivel?

The enemy wants you to think that. God did not make anything ugly. You are beautiful and wonderfully made. You have to tell yourself and believe it, We cannot be all the same. There is a lot of beauty in you. It is there.

rly? lame. ooooo now i see. 56-60. Zzzzzz

I don't know why your being too judgeful of yourself.

Hey don't apologise. It breaks my heart what you went through and if I went through the exact same thing I don't think I could have overcome it. I wish I could give you a hug so I'd have to settle for a digital hug *digital hug* I'm sorry for what those ****** put you through it makes me so sad. The primary school I went to did a similar things. One I was only 2nd team Netball instead of first team because I didn't look "good enough" even though I was on 1st team level. The teachers and everybody else pawned on the most goodlooking people, they were the first teams, cheerleaders and prefects. Just because they were goodlooking and the teachers would make fun the ones who they deemed ugly. Like one guy who had a big head who they called "orange on a toothpick", another guy had a really big but and was teased mercilessly by almost everyone for it. Another girl was skinny not by choice but people made fun of her saying she was anorexic even though she had a disease. Another girl who looked strange not necessarily ugly but people called her ugly( let's call her loren*)and it got so bad at one point where a girl(let's call her jessica*) got everyone to write in Jessica's book why they didn't like Loren and Loren proceeded to tell, follow while shouting all the things written in it. There was another guy with long dangling limbs that people made fun of and compared him to a monkey. Etc.

Let me tell you the truth about how I see this and I might actually be right. Your parents are narcissists (If you don't know what it means please look it up or just ask me what I mean by it if you're still confused as to how I can call them that) Look up narcissistic parents and narcissistic friends. Your parents, acquaintances, senior girls, teachers are NARCISSISTIC ******. Okay you might have a big nose, but to call it a catcus? I know you believe it but that is pure exaggeration on her part even if your mom was serious. You'd have to be in the guineas world or magazine if your nose was that strange. You were a TEENAGER, one of the unfortunate ones to get really oily/pimple/acne skin (you weren't specific I'm just a guessing) They had no right to make fun of you like that seriously and that doctor..ugh.

I also go (last year) to an all girls school and I know how mean it can be. I'm grateful my school doesn't tolerate bullying like how yours did but it still happens even to me. There are narcissists but I'm happy there are just a few decent real people. I'm also a highly sensitive person, I cry easily so I know what its like for people to say those things to you and say "you're crying for nothing" They are speaking out of ignorance out of anything else. A few more questions. Were the schools you went to private schools? Do you live in an upclass area with upclass people? I'm not asking these questions for random I'm getting somewhere trust me. Now that you're out of school, how are people treating you? Is it any different? Worse or better than before? Then how so? I'm getting somewhere trust me.

I still don't think you're ugly though. You may have bad skin but that can be fixed, greasy hair that can be fixed, a big nose, So what? It doesn't mean you're ugly. But you've been absorbing what other people have told you for years I doubt you'll believe me but that's ok. I'm still rooting for you.

Look I'm not saying looks aren't important at all in this superficial world because they are. I was trying to point out really is important which are relationships and love because from your post you were putting a lot of emphasis on beauty, as if it were the one thing that would truly make your life better. But looks should only be important to an extent or it becomes bad for you. There was a time where I was highly insecure and I felt really ugly and I was thinking "If I looked prettier then I will have the confidence to attract/speak to the guys I like and be happier.'' Why? Because I was putting too much emphasis on good looks. I felt sooo ugly I thought nobody liked me even though there was a cute guy who liked me, which I realize now how OBVIOUS he was that he did but I was so insecure at the time I couldn't believe and see it because I was "soo ugly" and he had attractive beautiful girls throw themselves at him all the time. I was so insecure that I literally had a book where I wrote how ugly other people are and I was a master at making fun of other peoples flaws. (Like the burn book in Mean Girls) but now I see that was a manifestation of how I see myself. I'm not a good-looking girl by the worlds standard (okay more like the U.S.A), I'm between average and ugly (because some people do think I'm ugly, others don't but I don't ever believe myself to be ugly I just think I have ugly days) I do care about my appearance, doing my hair well, having good skin, the best body I can. Because it is important to me to look healthy and good For Myself. Obviously if I like a guy I'd do it for him to because that is natural. But I'm not believing being prettier will make you happier because I know from experience it really doesn't no matter how "great" beautiful peoples lives look. It's an illusion just like hollywood and it's actors. Get better jobs? Yes. Get better opportunities? Yes. More attention? Yes. Get paid more? Yes. Better relationships and love? Not even close. I now see through the illusion by reading, knowledge and experience. I'm not exactly happy with my looks either and I have pics where I'm like YIKES! My friends and family have laughed in front of me because I was so ugly in them or in real life. But now I'm learning to think "you know what I am attractive in my own way, I'm not exactly happy with my looks but who is? Or when I'm like "Yoh I'm so ugly" I push it aside in my mind and remember" I'm my own worse critic and I'm not so bad". It works because its true. People can see it, when you carry yourself with confidence and believe you're sexy including guys. Because I believe I'm cute now, I can get any guy I want I just have "bad days."

You are right not all beautiful people are a**holes and not all ugly people are the sweetest people on earth. Attractive people do get more opportunities and I hate that. I'm sorry about all those people who teased you, hurt and tortured you so much that the memory of it brings you to tears because of what they said. Also that people still sneer at you today. I can't help but think how UGLY and rotten those people are because they're that FUGLY. I'm not saying it to make you feel better but that is the truth, if that is how they try to make themselves feel better. I know how hard it is to not believe what people say about because they say it all the time. You want to know how to stay confident when people sneer at you all the time? Well I actually looked up how to be confident. I learned that the way people act rarely has anything to do with you. If people are saying you're nothing/ ugly/disgusting/sneer it's because they are insecure and the way the treat others is how they see themselves or the problems in their life acting out. Psychology helps my friend.

Remember I said earlier on people can see how you see yourself. Well that is because of body language. Those people sneer at you because they can see they have power over you to hurt you because you believe what people say about you easily.

Look the best you can. You don't have to be good-looking to look good. You will feel good, trust me, but after that stop believing those idiots please. People judge and hate me everyday but I tell myself, "They don't know jacksh*t about me, my friends and myself do, so they can go **** themselves''. Give the best you can then if people are still judgemental and sh*t it helps to think "If they can't handle me at my worst they certainly don't deserve me at my best."

Personally I don't think you're ugly. I know you're not ugly. You grew up with bitchy girls who succeeded in making you feel horrible and ugly and you didn't grow up with guys so you probably don't have great experiences with them that will say otherwise. Don't trust what other girls say you ugly or not. Those girly-girls you mentioned don't know jack about what guys find attractive and what they look for in a girl. I know because I've grown up with them my whole life and they tell me everything.

You said people have been tormenting and hurting you also people sneer at you. Just what did they say? Who are they? I need to know this. I know its painful to remember but I want to fully understand where you are coming from.

You sounded like you have been in this condition before and I am glad you made it through, you 'healed' yourself. I am not strong enough and it's hard to even tell myself that I look 'nice'. My looks give me shame and embarrassment.

Who are the people?
1. My parents
2. Random people my parents introduce me to
3. Acquaintances
4. Senior girls
5. Teachers

Ok, first of all no one had ever told me I was beautiful, except those annoying salesgirls in the malls that call you 'pretty' just so that you buy their stuffs. 2nd, I look ugly in pictures...i look really ugly,like seriously.So,I avoid taking photos and become a social outcast because people are like," why doesn't she want to take photos....like WHY???!" And I myself admit that I look truly ugly in photos sometimes I get depressed for months just looking at an ugly photo with all those goddamned pretty people next to me.

My problem is I am ugly but I am also vain. If I am ugly, and I don't give a damn on how I look, there wouldn't be a problem at all. Everything's rosy and good. But I desire to be pretty. I want to look pretty for this life which I am living. I have only one life for that matter. If I was, I would be able to embark on a journey that interest me, I have always,always wanted to join the fashion world but I gave up because of my lack of attributes. THAT make me sad. It's not always about boys. Yes, I don't get much attention from them but it doesn't make me as sad as not being able to do what I like and be who I want just because I am ugly.
It's a 'life' thingy, not a guy thingy.

My mom told me I was ugly when I was 9. She told me my nose looked like a cactus ( she's not joking, she's serious and she's like, " You see, your nose look like a cactus, your sister's look fine" ) I know it's one sentence, I could shrug it off and act as if nothing's happened,but I was hurt. My dad also told me how ugly I was with such bad skin and should start doing something before people judged me. That wasn't his exact words but it went something like that. And this happened all the time when I was a preteen.

My friends' parents like to compare me with their children and it depresses me yet I kept it all in. I have mothers,fathers, aunts, uncles of my so-called friends dishing about my height, my weight, my hair, my everything compared to their daughters. I admit what they said were somehow true but I was 10/11, for god's sake...would u do that to a small girl, crush her feelings and self-esteem? They think it's trivial and they probably think it's no biggie for them to say that but look at the adverse effects,10 years later and I could still pinpoint whatever they have said.
Once, a doctor even commented on my looks, my pores and my eyes and I was so mad at him, I cry all the way back in the car despite my fever. And guess what my dad said, " We spend so much money to take you to see the doctor and you're still so ungrateful like that. He just commented, so let him be! Why must you be so sensitive? If you are so sensitive,I have no idea how can you face the real world?" That's accurate...haih....I am crying while typing this, why can't my parents just support me for once, even though what was said about me was true.

I have eczema and my dad told everyone in public and I have to show everyone my scars, that made me insecure. It's not that my dad is a bad man or anything, my dad, my mom, they just don't understand my feelings. And I can't go into minute details, they are so many random people who commented about how sad/unlucky I am for looking like this.

Well my classmates since primary school are as vain, if not vainer than me. The prettiest girl is always chosen for everything, prefect, choir conductor, dancer, story teller, representative for sport house,representative for class, teachers' pet etc... you get what I mean...So it's kindda brutal. I am in an all-girls primary school and that's how people started commenting on each others looks. The ones that looked better have higher status,ie. they are respected, their views are taken into consideration, they have influence. All this when we were just kids,7-12 years old. It just seems ridiculous now to be vain at like 7?

A senior girl was talking to her friend in separate cubicles in the toilet. Her friend couldn't distinguish me and another girl,K. So, this senior girl told her friend that I am the uglier one. Like she just said it,straight up, like it's a hard cold fact. Unfortunately, I came into the toilet and was washing my hands at the sink and I heard their conversation. They were laughing out loud at the end of it. It may seem like a scene in a teen movie but it happened to me,real life scenario and there's no way I can tell you how I felt that very moment. I looked into my face, turned on the tap, and the senior girl asked," Who's out there?" and I just said my name and left. I was devastated from then, I didn't eat for days, didn't come out from my room, I hated myself for looking ugly. I didn't once blame them because what they said were so true, I was always the uglier one.

I was surrounded by vain girls again in high school and they take things to a higher level, rating girls based on their looks. Guys asked me why my legs are not skinny thin like models on ads? I was really upset by that. I don't really care if no guys liked me or something but please, I just feel suicidal every time anyone or just anybody commented on my looks, so please keep your thoughts as thoughts.

Teachers, primary school, told me to take more vitamin pills, I was 10/11 because my skin was bad. I had no idea why, it wasn't that bad but they make it seem as if I had make a mistake, a terrible one for not having perfect skin. My teachers commented about my looks in front of the whole class,saying that I have greasy hair etc. I can't remember but it was very mean. I cried in class, as expected.

I grew up seeing pretty people being loved, being cared for while I was treated harshly and mean just because I am ugly. So, I started thinking what makes me ugly, who makes me ugly....And it's down to genes, luck and God. It was not my fault, not my choice, yet I suffer the consequences. And it is natural to question,why,why me?

Just listed some 'big event'. There are many more minor ones. Sorry if it's long.

haha,sorry for those grammar mistakes,was too emotional. Hope you can make out what I am actually trying to say.

So if God made you more beautiful, how are people still not going to hate you or judge you still? Beautiful people are also judged and hated just as much as ugly people. Why? Because they are beautiful.

God is not kind of genie where just praying to him is going to get what you want. God doesn't concern Himself with looks because he reads what is in the heart. The heart is what matters to Him not your looks. He knows that what people really want and need and that is LOVE.

I know it sucks being ugly and it is very painful living believing you are ugly but ugliness is just perception, nothing more. Have you ever met a person who you thought really beautiful but they became ugly because of what that person was like, with all that ugliness (meanness, superficiality, judgementalness, self-absorbed, no empathy) inside them? Have you ever met a person who you once thought ugly who became absolutely beautiful to you because of how wonderfully kind, thoughtful and loving they were? Being beautiful isn't going to make your problems go away, it isn't going to guarantee you successful relationships. How many beautiful people you know who had happy lasting marriages or commitments? Happy families? Loyal loving friends? Because at the end of the day, it doesn't matter how beautiful you are, it is about how much you VALUE and LOVE yourself.

Most beautiful people are RIDDLED with insecurities- yes it obviously doesn't stop people from being attracted to them in masses but it's also why they relationships don't last long. Vanity, judgementalness, plastic surgeries, posing nude, jealousy, cheating, snoping, lying, fakeness, self-doubts, feeling worthless etc. They are just as insecure as us, who also feel ugly and unattractive even if a lot of people are pursuing and telling them how beautiful and handsome s/he is (is s/he crazy! What is s/he talking about??!! ) In the end of the day it isn't how beautiful you are it is about your RELATIONSHIP WITH PEOPLE that makes you truly beautiful and truly, truly happy.

LOVE is the gist of life, what makes you feel valuable or not. Whether you have a life of meaning or not which depends whether you have successful relationships or not. I can't tell you how many times I went for a hot guy only to find out how incredibly boring, uninteresting, shallow, selfish, vain, insecure (Insecure men are the worst men to DATE trust me, they're the ones that abuse you, cheat on you, jealous, can't provide and can't give the love you deserve and need). A lot of them are not smart or funny and I promise you, they're looks get boring VERY FAST, the same apples to beautiful girls/women. How many beautiful people only date beautiful people? Most of them stick with an average/ugly guy/girl then people try to figure out, "How THE HELL is he/she with HIM/HER!" Well maybe because that person is intelligent, funny, smart, kind, unique, spontaneous, fun, great company, intriguing, understanding, cool, relaxed, thoughtful, non-judgemental, honest, real etc. The range of good qualities people possess OUTSIDE of looks. The things that actually matter, not something you're just born with and fades away as you grow older. Maybe because that person makes them feel like the most SPECIAL, BEAUTIFUL and VALUBLE person on the planet regardless of how they feel they do look and about themselves?

Let me tell you a fact of life. God LOVES YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS. When he created you he was like, "Wow she is so beautifully and wonderfully made!'' Everyday He wants to lavish you with His love but you're thinking "I'm so ugly please will you make me more beautiful, how can you love me I'm so ugly you made these other girls with perfect hair, lips, bodies etc. Why haven't you made me just as perfect as them?" You are seeing all theses imperfections in yourself but all he sees is how unique and beautiful you are! There's nothing to fix with Him so why would he? Because you believe all the lies of the media and it's perception of beauty? That is slammed down everybodies throat so much that we can't recognise how much we conform to it? And believe that is TRULY WHAT BEAUTY IS? Not just a perception of old slimy men in suits who advertise it? Having a flat butt used to be attractive now having a round butt is in. Being skinny used to be attractive now it's being curvy etc etc. I can go on and on. A few years later people are going to be like "what was the big deal''? Seriously remember how women wanted to have super small waists and now when we see it people are like "are they crazy?'' How in the 50s men went crazy for Marilyn Manroe and everybody now is like "what is the big deal with her? She wasn't THAT pretty?" A few years down the line people going to be like "what is wrong with them, what's so attractive about having silicon in your boobs and looking like two ball were inserted in it? Fat girls are ugly? What? They are so beautiful? You should be getting the point now. So please work on your body image and stop with the jealousy, that's what makes a person really ugly. Work on your insecurities What's important is being healthy in every aspect in your life. Physically, emotionally, spiritually and relationship wise.

Yeah, I do agree with what you say. Thank you for the long post. This was written years ago, but I will not deny that I do still feel unhappy about my looks.

What I wrote was a rant, a feeling of dissatisfaction and sadness. The feeling of losing out, the feeling of insecurity/low self-esteem. Those feelings will not exist if I look better. I will like myself more, be more fearless and it will sure open a lot of opportunities that had been denied of me all these years.

Looks may seem trivial to some. But it is a big deal to many. Your look defines you. Your looks are what people see every day, associate you with, remember you by.

Not all pretty people have bad attitudes,not all ugly people have amazing ones. I feel I have a fairly good attitude and what I need is just to look beautiful.

Because of my ugliness, I have been tormented,yes,emotionally. And it was very hurtful. I cry every time those mean events cross my mind. Looks are very much important, although you may deny it, you must ask yourself will looking a little bit better make you happy?If you want to lie and say no, do mutilate your own face and snap a picture and post to the world, " I am beautiful!" because apparently to you, it's only the personality that counts.

Come on, this is reality,looking ugly will never put you ahead of others even though you are the kindest, friendlist (insert positive trait) person around. Looks sell.

Don't tell me you have never been conscious about your weight or even cared how your hair looked like. You make it all sound so insignificant. Why don't you try to go to work and do your daily business without combing your hair or anything related to looks for a month. Destroy the mirrors in your house, if looks aren't important. I would love to see how far you can get if you don't put any effort into looks.

I didn't mention that fat girls are ugly.But if I am fat, I think I am ugly and I look ugly. I don't judge others.

I know you're trying to pass down a positive message but how to be confident when people sneer at you all the time? You tell me, my dear....

yes,I agree. But not anyone can understand and appreciate u as u are.

My parents are divorced, my mom is by no means overweight but my dad is now married to a very overweight woman who got eczema and she's very lazy.
My point here is; Your looks don't matter. What matters is your inside, you may be lazy, uggly in your opinion and have lots of troubles but there'll still be someone who loves you dearly and all you'll need to do for that person is to be there for them, pour your love over them and you'll get it all back.
Everyone got different tastes, there'll always be someone who find you attractive. Besides, there's tons of people who find overweight as an attractive aspect. Of course, if you don't want to be overweight, work for it. But don't expect to lose it all in one week. It takes time, a lot of time and efforts, it won't lose itself.
However, most important is that you yourself accept yourself as you are.

lol...i am not overweight, just ugly my dear...

But my point has still been delivered. You may see yourself as uggly but there'll always be someone who find you very attractive. I guarantee you that, I promise!
I value heart way more than looks.

i will wait for that one person...if he does not exist, will come and find u and then u give me an answer. deal?

Hahaha deal deal ;D

lol...just joking btw...keep ur fingers crossed for me and i will do it for u and everyone else in the same boat.

haha ;D Of course I'll keep my fingers crossed, that's should be taken for granted xD

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I believe most of us can relate several personal experiences while reading your work. I myself am very confused about the same. But one thing I understood from long time experimenting is that there is some place where will feel, we belong to. Its just the matter of exploring it out.Loving a person for the inner beauty mambo jumbo is just total crap or that's what I too came to understand from my experiences. Being a guy, I have seen gorgeous girls fall hunks who turns out to be total jerks and blah blah blah,.. I tweaked myself to try and get my "inner beauty" ON, but alas, the girl always go for the next hunk just to experience the same things all over again.Well, my point is there are a lot of things that one could do with life. Finding love is just one part of it. Of course it is important but it is not the only thing. I decided to find out something to be passionate about and enjoy doing it. I also experimented my looks with several styles to find which suites me more. I work out to get my body in shape. Anyone could get into a decent shape with a good, regular workout. The face, well cant be changed or tweaked much naturally. But well, I just accepted it. My motto is to : Explore life and its possibilities.

but i want a pretty face...i want it so badly

That's how I feel I go to a school called manor and I'm in yr 6 now some people left my school and went gateway academy (which school I hate) and I'm still getting bullied. All the way from reception going up to yr 6. My ex boyfriend (blake) is now hanging out with my friend Isobel and I think they go out. But I wunna go out with him but he says no. This makes me feel lonley and I have basically no friends at all. Only Isobel but she don't really care about me anymore. Because blake and Isobel started a club and now their writing and drawing poems which I want to join in but I can't because my mum won't let me. I hate my life so much and I want to start over.i get called bun (ugly) and fat and every time I hear them words I gat depressed. I'm really dumb and everyone has to spread it which makes me feel upset. Please can you help me?????

How can I help, dear when I was exactly in the same situation. I was helpless, hopeless. There was nothing I could do to cheer myself up. I want that pretty face, I want that awesome body but it isn't mine. And people used to call my calves 'chicken thighs' cz they are not model-like thin. I have been living with girls that analysed every part of u and u have to be a supermodel to gain their praises....

okay all you nice looking people making comments about it how you see yourself and blah blah
Go to a site like meet me and put up a photo of someone you think is not attractive and then wait and see how many people even talk to you don't change the photo but tell everybody I see myself as pretty and then wait and see how many people don't talk to you and then come back and tell us how beautiful we should feel!

yeahhhh...agree

Lol, fuglygirlonthebench. know I know Iam really late for this but idc. Reading through your comments and responses to other people made me realize that your kind of a ****. No offence or anything but, if ya want people to like you then ya kinda gotta be nice to other people... The way you see yourself reflects on your face/physical appearance and thats how people see you as. Like legit. Theres even a youtube vid on it. Anyways, Im still in high school so I dont know very much either but sounds like your in high school too. So obvs your not done maturing, your still changing and sculpting. So this is what I do, I know im not attractive and im tired of it. So I pray about ALL THE TIME and I have all the faith in the world in God that he will help me get through this and make me gorgeous because he loves me and there is no reason why not. People say that he wont change you but how the hell would they know?? He God for goodness sakes!! Like he can do whatever the **** he wants. And Im not rude to other people and I still interact with them even though my body and mind scream for me to crawl under some sheets and never come out. But I do it anyways because the people that judge me; Im just gonna prove them wrong, and shock them when I turn beautiful. P.s I still want to die but I dunno, you only live once so better not spoil it by being depressed all the time.

Hello, I am way past high school, you are the one not maturing not to realise that. And u want me to be nice to people who tormented me and make me feel worthless... Please try to understand others before making judgement on them. You don't know me and you are immature for judging me based on comments.

The thing is that life is NOT fair. We know that from the fact that God does not intervene in the laws of nature that he created. We can do what we can to feel better about our appearance (I suffer from ugliness, also, and my pain brought me to this site), but we cannot complain that God is not fair in what he gives to us. Life on earth, where sin abounds and where sin is the ruling power, is manifestly not fair. Is it fair that innocent children are killed in the womb? Or that innocent people are dying in Africa and loads of other places from disease and war? None of that is fair. All of that is the consequence of sin.

The ultimate fate of your eternal soul depends on how you handle the pain of being ugly. God understands, by the way, that you may be angry with him. Tell him how you feel honestly and listen to his answer. Maybe his eternal love will obliterate the agony you suffer.

I should add that it is my prayer that he will help me cope with my own ugliness. And I am not young anymore, but I am still stuck here, suffering and trying to survive. The pain is excruciating--I know it well. But if we have faith in God then we know that what we see here is just a small part of the whole reality that God has created for us. He loves us, whether we are ugly or beautiful. He loves us whether we are saints or sinners. We can choose friendship with him or to live apart from him. It will be our own choice to go to hell, if we wind up there. We can choose Christ, though, and have him live in our heart as we cross this vale of tears and console us with his supernatural love. We can taste salvation while we are here, in the midst of our agony. I often succumb to the temptations of the world and judge myself harshly, as the world does. Then I do not value my life and want to die. But I don't want to die. I want to see God. I want God's promises. I don't know how I can live the rest of my life knowing how ugly I am to people, but I will seek the Lord's help in doing that and staying true to him. I do plan to see a plastic surgeon to see if anything can be done, but if it can't, then I will implore God to the end of my days to give me the strength to see this journey through to its last day.

I pray for you, original poster, that you may turn back to God and seek the peace that passeth all understanding, which has the potential to transform you into a being of light and love, a sign to others that God lives in the humble heart. God inside you will make you beautiful--and me, if we are faithful.

Thank you for the comment.

Hey there. I am a fellow benchwarmer. I was reading some of your responses to the feedback given by other commenters and I can absolutely 1000% relate to what you are saying. There are many well meaning responses to your plight but they are basically useless. "ppl will love you for you" etc etc (bullshit. this is planet earth. ppl do not love you-for-you) ("no one is ugly, its all in perception - beauty is in eye of beholder" etc blah blah blah..... seriously. cut the crap.) To me, there are VERY FEW ugly people in the earth. But there ARE definitely people who are more and less attractive. That being said, most ppl consider themselves on the "lesser" side of the equation. To be on the lesser side, totally freakin sucks. its terrible. its not fun. and its not fair.

Everyone wants to have a good relationship with themselves. What we see in the mirror often determines the way we think/feel about ourselves. I have battled this for many years. Self hatred purely predicated off of what I saw staring back at me. Whats my solution to the matter?? I do believe in God - but I dont believe he customizes the way people look. I think peoples appearance is entirely predicated off of genes. So I was equally depressed as you (no joke. very angry about my body/face). So I acknowledged the fact that there was no magic wand to be waived this side of heaven that was going to take me from a 5.5-6 to a 10/10. But I do believe somehow someway that God actually does care for me. So I got out a piece of paper and wrote down every single persuasive reason for the Lord to grant me stellar beauty in the next life. Its not such a crazy request after all. I hope you do the same. Its not like he answered me in cloud lettering saying that he would grant my request true - but he didnt say no either. So basically, I have hope that I will a new body in the next heaven/life. I wish you the same fate as me. I literally couldnt come up with one reason why he would say no to me (or you, if you made that request of him).

Haha, you took a different approach, I can see that! :) I get what you\'re trying to put across but how can you convince me there\'s a next life? It seems bizzare to me.

God loves everybody as an equal! Quate, "Those who came last shall come first!" Anybody who judges you, ignore them they're the stupid ones, they're the ones who need to get a life and shove off. If people have and sense they will not judge you for your looks, they will judge you for your personality. (Pretty girls have a disadvantage that the stupid, foolish guys who just want sex go to them) shhh, don't tell anyone :)

Lol. As is ugly girls will find true love? Anyway, this post isn\'t about not being able to get a guy because of looks. It\'s more about self-worth,self-confidence,emotional stability; none will be given to you if you are ugly. You say it as if it\'s so simple,\"Ignore them! Leave them aside!\"Do you know how it feels to be shunned and criticised and ignored and looked down upon when you look like a load of rubbish? Can you ignore the monsters who did it? And those monsters look damn good, with their pretty faces and long limbs?

As if*

Yes, I do I was bullied for 4 years... Physically

Oh my, feel really bad for you....hugs

I've been getting bullied for all my life I'm only 10

I'm sorry ik how hard it is :/

I've been getting bullied for all my life I'm only 10

It's okie, I move house and school now :)

"God loves everybody as an equal!" Ha-Ha. God cares about beautiful women. Read Deuteronomy, Chapter 21.

He still loves everybody as an equal no exception!

It's your personal belief.

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I understand ! i totally understand your feelings! because I am the same...
I have always thought about things like why can pretty people live such a great life while the poor ugly me has to always suffer alone in her room ...
to tell the truth no one ever told me that i was ugly except my brothers maybe when we have a fight together ...
but i know that people see me this way...
i see it clearly through their eyes and the look they have on their faces after looking at me ... Is it real that god doesn't love me? but why? ...
I still have little hope because im still young , dont know what will happen to me in the future...

Don\'t put your hopes up, trust me. You may end up looking just the same or even uglier. I am not discouraging you~ Most of the time, if you\'re not already pretty by 16( the pinnacle of your life), you will end up uglier,think about ugly features and wrinkles and saggy skin? Anyway, this happened to me, this ****! Taking photos is like having your limbs cut off from your body, it hurts to see how ugly you are yourself on apiece of film. There\'s nothing we can do, honey.:(

16 is not the pinnacle of most peoples life... If it happens to be for a particular person they generally go downhill really quick and spend the rest of their life wishing they were 16 again...

True.....

I feel the same way. I wake up sometimes andI won't want to get out of my room because im so ******* ugly. :( I hate it so much... and when people stare at me... I know why. I know how you feel. And my mom would comment about me too...and my friends would joke about how I look and even put their hands in front of my face when they talk to me. Life is so unfair!

Yeah, it\'s sad when people poke at your ugliness in public. I lost faith in everyone, I lost faith in myself. I have zero confidence left. My life\'s hardly there. I didn\'t know whether I was living or not, being ugly is so difficult to handle.

I realize this is old but I have to disagree with you as much as I like your writing

God made you as you and there is no mistake in that making

God will never not love you with all He has, You can find a rock 200,000,000 years old and He will love you longer than that.

I have never seen you but I have no doubts that you are beautiful for you are a creature that has purpose by Him.

Never doubt that you are beautiful and if someone doesn't think so then dont give them the time of day.

Hugs to you

BAPhoto, thanks so much for reading and actually spend some time to write me a comment. Your words makes my situation sounds like it\'s not a problem at all, it makes it looks as easy as a kindergarten kid\'s math problem, even easier to solve.

But it isn\'t, living this life is a painful journey,I have no idea what sins I did to deserve to be born into this world,so full of hatred,so full of manipulation,so full of troubles. Yet I preservere, albeit bleeding like a wounded animal at the brink of that.

I can hardly imagine anything beautiful.

brink of death* sorry.

It is not easy, trust me I know it takes work, faith, and trust..

You need a friend I am here to walk with you one day at a time

ohh, what should i do? How can I start?

You try to find beauty and happiness in each day, like for me I get up and watch the sunrise it always makes my day better. I take pictures of things like wild animals in the wild. I read

On each of us it can be different

I hope it works that way for me but it doesn\'t.

So what works for you?

For now I don\'t know. I am yet to find the things that works. But I\'ve tried what u suggested. I hope you keep on helping me. :)

Inspired :)

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If you have confidence in yourself then you don't feel as ugly and don't compare yourself with other as much. You need to be happy with yourself the way you are. I'm sure you are perfect, who needs to be a size 2 to be pretty? Be proud of who you are and work out if it bugs you all that much. Shedding a couple of pounds can make you feel great

Thank you but I am not fat. My mother told me I was ugly when I was young and she always compared me with other people\'s daughters. I always thought I could ignore her utter nonsense, but I grew up into a very troubled and depressed person. I know it\'s a big deal, my mother gave birth to me, but if this is the life i am bound to live, I would rather not be born at all.

Ugly, depressed and get nagged and tormented for not being sociable. I can\'t stand this life anymore!

Don't be like those normal girls who looks almost the same with the other girls. Be different. Be unique. That will make you stand out. You can e pretty by first elieving that you are. It's all in the mind as what others say. Think and believe you're pretty and soon you'll realize you really are.

Thank you for your kind words...:)

I have tried to believe but the next minute people will jolt me up from my fantasy and remind me how ugly I am, why I don\'t deserve certain things. When so many people are saying that, somehow u believe them and it\'s really devastating.

Living in a life and believing you are ugly.

Who the heck are these people and why are you around them.

Don\'t believe what others says about you. You can listen to them but don\'t let it get to you. Look what it did to you.. because of what they say about you and u believe it, you lost your confidence in you. They do nothing good to you. It only brings you down and destroy how you look at yourself. Be strong and brush off what they say about you. Only your opinion in yourself is what\'s important.

You sound so wise kat,i wish i were u.
But I am weak and I too, hate that person in the mirror.
At times, i feel so horrible, i wanna die.
I know it\'s pathetic but story of my life, I just want to be beautiful.

We\'re no different... All around me people would tell how fat and ugly I\'am. My parents, relatives, siblings, friends... everyone. There were times that I just want to pull my hear out because I\'m so tired of all those mean words. I cry at night when I remember those things. It hurts me really deep inside and sometimes it does get to me. But I try really hard to shut it out. I try my best to laugh at it and forget about it. I always make myself presentable when my relatives are here so that they\'ll not make me feel ugly or feel bad about fixing myself up. I believe in myself.. though there were times it\'s really hard. But slowly I\'m trying to be better. You should to. Believe in yourself. Do what makes you happy and shut those people who hurts you.

I am glad you understood. But at the same time, I am upset u are going through the same thing. It\'s not easy, kaaat... How do i start believing in myself?

Start off with shutting off others opinions about you. Learn to listen but don\'t get it to you. Respect their opinions but put all their opinions to trash. It\'s useless, rubbish, nothing good in there. It maybe hard at first since you\'ve been believing what they say about u for I think a long time now, but you have to start believing in yourself and think for yourself and not others. You gotta get out of that room wd all those people\'s opinions and go to another room where it\'s all about you.

I wish I could. But it\'s not easy like that.

It\'s not easy I know. I\'ve been there, Don\'t rush things up. Take things slowly. You can\'t expect to be a better person in just a few weeks or months. I\'ve been shutting off people\'s harsh/mean opinions about me for 4 yrs now and it still gets to me, but not like before, somewhat better but it\'s still there. You can do this. I believe in you and you should too. Take things one at a time. Make it slowly but surely.

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There are certain things you can do to make yourself look prettier, like getting your hair done or gaining/loosing weight... Everyone isn't 100% happy with the way they look but you will be that person for the rest of your life, you shouldn't worry so much over how you look, one day you will find a guy who loves you for who you are and that will find you beautiful!

To make it clear,I am unhappy because I am ugly, I don\'t give a damn about some guy/relationship. Even if a guy thinks I am pretty but I still think I am ugly,it doesn\'t help! The most important thing is for me, myself to look into the mirror and feel pretty and happy for once, to feel liberated,to know that I am not shortchanged for everything that happen in life, to feel confident for once...

Thanks for commenting...:)

If you want to feel pretty, happy and confident then you have to make changes to make yourself happy! It doesn\'t matter what you look like as long as you are a good person... Id rather be ugly as **** with a great personality than be gorgeous with the intelligence of a door and a bad person! Some people lack in looks but make up for it with other qualities, try to find happiness with what you\'ve got, there\'s a lot of things I\'d change about myself but I can\'t, so sometimes you just have to appreciate what you\'ve got and get on with life and do things that make you happy :)

I wouldn\'t have that much problem with my looks if I wasn\'t trashed by the society now and then. I have lost millions of oppurtunities. I am not stupid but because of my looks, society treat me like trash, as if I don\'t belong, I don\'t deserve. I am deeply hurt and angry! how can i live if people keep judging me day and night???

I don\'t know what you\'ve been through or are going through and I would never truly understand unless I was you, judging people is in human nature... Everyone judges everyone, I have a gift of turning off my emotions when I want to... So when people judge me, I just don\'t care :/ but it\'s horrible that you have missed out on opportunities because of your looks, I hate society and some people are so cruel to others and it upsets me :( but the way you feel about yourself and the way you think other people feel about you won\'t change unless you do something about it :/

yeah, waiting for a miracle...thanks joanne!!

I can ignore if it\'s just words. What about not being able to get a scholarship,about not getting into college? although u have the best grades and requirements but the interviewers and professors just do not favor me because I am not as pretty/cute/sweet as the other candidates? what about having it harder when it comes to applying for jobs? What about not having the chance to do what u like/love? that\'s more than i can ignore. I have a right to feel upset. It\'s not just being sniggered at,that simple.

I was treated way harshly compared to prettier counterparts. life\'s just unfair!

Amen to that. As an ugly guy, I lose out on lots of opportunities myself, compared to the Hollywood-movie-star-looking guys with arms bigger than their heads. I know exactly how you feel.

Thank you for understanding.

Being ugly is the worst curse ever.It is painful.

I had a lady tell me on my story yesterday that being fat is far worse than being ugly. I kinda laughed at it, because you can be bigger and still be beautiful. But when you\'re ugly, you\'re just....ugly. It doesn\'t matter what your body looks like if your face doesn\'t match.

yeah, i have known many chubbier friends who have very pleasant faces, their faces light up every time they smile and they always seemed happy. Being a little on the heavy side, it won\'t make people hate u if u have a great personality/aura. But if you\'re ugly, people turn away no matter how lovely u are.

Hell, the girl I have a crush on right now is a big girl, but she\'s ridiculously cute, and no one makes fun of her for being a bigger girl (which is a good thing). Me on the other hand, I get called ugly at least 4 times a day. This is despite the many good things that women apparently have to say about me, such as being manly, smart, good with kids, friendly, and all that. But the one hurdle I can\'t overcome besides my speech impediment is my looks.

Can you please start a new comment if u wish to comment any longer? :)

Yeah, we are in the same boat and I have no advice or wise words to give you. I understand how it hurts, all I want to do is put a stop to being ugly,what about you?

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I say work with what you have! Some people don't have to work hard to be slim, lucky them. But if you want to be slim, then exercise! Basically work with you got and make it beautiful. I'm not encouraging doing anything unhealthy but I do believe in working on your own beauty. I have no room for laziness.

Yeah, yet another who comment about me being lazy. It\'s wise to read other people\'s comments before commenting.

I am ugly not fat.If you\'re fat, it doesn\'t mean you\'re ugly, you may still have a pretty face. And when u exercise, u become thin, and tadaaa! you\'re beautiful.

I am not obese.I have big problems with my face, which I find ugly. Can exercise improve my face symmetry? Can exercise make my nose smaller, my eyes bigger?

I have tried everything...ok...from make up to more extreme measures like clipping my nose with a clip for days just hoping to make it smaller( i was around 10,i know it\'s stupid) but I DID TRY,mind you!

And can exercise give u a pretty face, tell me about that!!! It only makes u thinner not pretty?

Please do me a favor and check out the difference between thin and pretty. it\'s not the same, OBVIOUSLY...unless you are delusional or have succumbed to media pressure...roll eyes*

Never said you were lazy. It is wise to read before commenting. But then that would make you a hypocrite.

You could get face surgery but that\'s silly when there are better things that make it prettier without it. For example, does nudity mean pretty? Simply no. We stack clothes and all types of fashion accessories to make ourselves pretty. But what\'s considered beauty is all but relative. Everyone has a different idea of beauty.

You seem to have succumbed to media pressure.

Hmm, may i see a picture of you, to judge how "ugly" you are?

I knw I am ugly it doesn\'t make it better if i post a picture and have a million people agreeing with me.

exactly, I get a lot from my friends something like \"oh you\'re fine\". \"What you\'re not\"

doesn\'t help, they just don\'t see it.

yeah, i mean...do u want your friends to go,: \"you look like a pile of crap! how can your parents ever love you? ugly *****....?\" will u feel better? and if they say \" you look fine\"as if i am gonna believe them...

i know i am ugly.

God doesn't even exist.

I respect your opinion on that,

You'd have to be the creator of the universe to know that.

I understand compleletly. I might look okay in pictures, but god really did put me in awful a body. I hate it so much.... I wish my body would take a chil pill and stop producing so much oil, hair and acne

i look like crap when i take pictures but you always need to take pictures for identification. it really pains me to have to go through that. Hate what I see in the mirror and pictures.

I use to too. It was not until High School I started to take okay pictures. I am sorry you feel this way, but I understand and I don't wish for anyone to feel the way I do also. It kills your insides little by little.

Yea exactly, I am glad you understood. It really hurts. Thank you!

No one is ugly, beauty is purely a matter of perception, I have a condition which disfigures my body, at times it's very hard not to hate myself and feel as you do but I have enough life experience under my belt to know my true beauty always lives within me not in my external appearance.

But the society treats me differently. I am stepped on, misjudged, misused, looked down upon just because I wasn't in the beautiful crowd. My opinions left unheard. My ideas are snickered at. My life means nothing giving that people treat me as if my ugliness is contagious!

I do hear you, because of my condition I'm treated like a leper by some ignorant people who are ill educated and terrified they might catch what I've got, I'm not contagious and to be treated as though I am isn't much fun so I do get you but I seriously suspect that you have dysmorphia of some kind, I know that if you do have it you'll find it wildly difficult to accept, that's part of the condition, if you've never heard of it or don't know much about it I suggest you google it and if it rings true to you at all then you need to see a Dr about it. Personally I suspect you're gorgeous and people look at you and stare because of it. I know you won't believe me but I'd like you to at least be aware of it and perhaps ask someone you trust for there opinion as to whether this may apply to you. It might help.

Thank you for your advice. I have no idea about it but I will definitely check it out.:)

I hope everything will turn out well for you in life. Yes, I suffer a lot because of my looks and every day I pray that no one will feel as horrible as I do.

Please make sure you ask someone you trust if you've got it, you aren't likely to realise it yourself. I'd love to hear what someone who knows you thinks, if it's not too nosey of me to ask let me know how you get on.

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find one thing you love about you and hold onto it,never lose it and fight for it every day.the secret that holdsthis awful world together is that every1 hates themself and that insular lack of worth stops the world from splitting into factions of "ugly" and "beautiful"........atleast this way us ugmos get to stare at all their purdddddyyyyyy faces

find one thing you love about you and hold onto it,never lose it and fight for it every day.the secret that holdsthis awful world together is that every1 hates themself and that insular lack of worth stops the world from splitting into factions of "ugly" and "beautiful"........atleast this way us ugmos get to stare at all their purdddddyyyyyy faces

What do you mean to imply?

I just wanted to say that I am going thru the exact same thing you are going thru. And I am a guy. I don't have an answer for you because everyday I am in pain and do not know how to make it go away. I'm sorry I'm too stupid to give you good advice, I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. We may be the only two, but I'm out here hurting with you

It's ironic because when I am hurting alone, I get mad at everybody, I get mad at whoever who made me like this but when someone like you walks forward and admit that you're hurting too, it breaks my heart, it really does. It always seem ok if I am depressed, it seems normal. It just gets worst when I know I am not alone, because I know how negative/bitter it feels.

I get how you feel. You feel like you are not one of the special people God created. In God's eyes everyone is beautiful, but the sad truth is that the world doesn't see in God's eyes. I have been struggling also with being unattractive ,and I blame God for that. I see God as an unfair God. Why? People who are born beautiful would normally thank God because it's easier for them to thank God. They have no problems with life because people accept them as easily as they accept themselves as beautiful people, and in my opinion God loves being thanked. But we, the not so physically gifted people, see that it is much more difficult to thank God because we have been given a harder life than those whom God had blessed. I agree that it is unfair for us. Why? For example: Models - Models are required to be tall, beautiful/handsome and with an incredible physique. I'll ask you a question: where are the efforts given by the model? Almost none, right? All are provided by God. In contrast with being a model, there are photographers - Photographers are required to be skilled in capturing a perfect shot which requires a lot of skill and practice. Photographers have to give effort in learning the basics of a photographer. You see the difference? I too understand the pain you are going through. And my faith in God has deteriorated greatly. I even tried to take my own life thrice. I felt like this world was f****d up and I didn't want to be a part of it. But I held on to one thought, that despite my ugliness, that despite the judgement, despite the hurt that God has allowed to happen in my life, I knew I was a good person. I know maybe for you being a good person is not enough to compensate for the past experiences you had to go through, but being a good person means a lot to many people. Yes, I still cry from time to time, but I go to many charity projects that allow me to make other people feel beautiful. Have you seen Project Smile? Check it out! It feels amazing to help out others.

I agree with most of your points. But I can't put myself out there to help others. I don't even know if I exist anymore. Being ugly has sucked out every tiny bit of life that's left in me. That's how bad it has affected me.As a young child all throughout my teenage years. I stopped thinking about my future, I stop making plans ahead,I was ready to leave this world for good. I am ugly and I want to change that but nobody around me understands how 'looks' can affect me so much. For them, everything is good if you've a roof above your head and food on your table. I see the rational in that. But how can I ignore this face, this body that will always be part of me? You can call me ungrateful but I have thrown away so many oppurtunities, so many things in live because of this ugly face. It is the cause of my downfall. Till the day I die, I would forever blame God for giving me this ugly vessel to contain my beautiful soul.

Then I suggest you to do what ugly01 said. Be good, do good and when you're time comes, ask God why He made you like that.

Thanks for commenting. If only that was easy...:) have a great day anyway!

First of all I would like to say that I clicked on this because I have felt that way more times than I can count... but then I realize what the problem is. The problem is I am not being grateful for the fact that unlike so many people I can wake up and see, move, talk, hear, and go about my day. Unlike people who have cancer, people who have lost limbs in war, I am healthy and strong. The problem is that I am ungrateful. It is all about perspective. No one becomes prettier by complaining about being ugly. The only way to be prettier is to be a more beautiful person. That means being grateful for atleast being healthy- which is more than tons of people can say.

I get it. But it takes more than being healthy to live in this modern world. You will never be successful just because you have all your limbs intact. Even intelligence is not a special ability anymore, everyone is getting smarter,everyone around you is rich. It's just normal if you are rich, talented, smart and pretty all at once. Today's world is asking more of that from us, humans. We have to compete with the rich and beautiful for a place in this world, to make our mark. When everyone is improving, you can't expect to sit back and be contented just for having your limbs intact. I am grateful I am healthy but being ugly have been a big blow to me ever since I was young, a disability I wish to overcome but I never could.I was bullied and I suffered severe mental anguish because of that. This is the world, spinning on its axis and it works according to the principle," Survival of the fittest." But the moment I see my face, I am a loser all along.

I'm a little late to the party here, but I understand how you feel. I can't tell you how many times in a week I break down crying because of how much I have to hide to appear normal. I have a massive amount of body hair, which is THICK. My stomach, my upper thighs (front at back), my chin, my eyebrows, my face, it's everywhere and it's so thick that it's impossible to hide. It hurts to shave my legs because of all the ingrown hairs. I have one full grown breast, and my other is literally...half of one, the lower half of my breast is missing completely. So it just sticks out and looks disgusting especially since I have abnormally large nipples. My hair is disgusting, I have to straighten it every day to look half decent. The left side of my face (especially around my eye) is VERY puffy, and it's been like that since I was a baby. I am over weight, and much taller than the average female with a very large bone structure. I feel like an animal more than I feel human. I hardly socialize and I am highly depressive.

I quite literally HATE anyone who can just get out of bed in the morning and look perfect. WHY do they get that luxury? WHAT makes them so special that they can just wake up, look in the mirror and say "I'm beautiful and everyone knows it!" They don't know what it's like to avoid people because you're scared. They don't know what it's like to starve, to hurt yourself because you don't look as perfect as they do. And what upsets me more, is when these perfect beauties are given TALENT on top off all that. Oooh look, a perfect looking big breasted, hairless body pretty blonde can sing like an angel. How is that fair? How? Sometimes I wonder why I even bother living. There's no point.

It makes me sad to know so many of us out there. We have this one life, one life to feel 'human' and we are born ugly. It's really sad.

i get you im fat ugly and the worst part is that i have a huge back which means i also have giant thighs and bones my cheek bones are huge my hair is so ugly and puffy and i did so much exercise and was starving myself and yet still i stay the same i see girls in my class were the cutest cloths and now with the whole bandos they show there stomach which i cant do because im fat and i see them look perfect and have beautiful hair and i see them eating junk like chips almost everyday and they gain no weight unlike me who strves myself and yet losing weight is imposible to me cuz of my giant back and i just hate myself i guess he was thinking let me make this one have long beautiful hair with perfect skin and eyes nice legs flat stomach and ill make this one short and fat so her legs will rub together when she walks i know its unfair but what can we do god does things for a reason and we should respect it

hoho...so u wanna respect it? why are u here telling me about your fate. If you're able to respect his choice and accept it, you would feel completely contented with it. What i am saying is, we are at the opposite, sad end of life. We can do nothing about it but we can lament, feel sad and question.

I agree with you there girl. I lost hope in God long ago. I hate myself. I look at all the skinny perfect girls in my class. I have to deal with boys rejecting me and everyone looks down on me, I hate all the girls that are skinny and slim at my school saying there "fat" and I hate how naturally skinny girls eat a lot of crap/bad food and never gain weight whilst I am trying so hard to give up everything I loved. I hate how my siblings are skinny and I ended up the stupid one with poor genetics. I really do. The thing is we can't change what God gave us (if he exists) and we can try our hardest to change it. Yeah,it is very very unfair...but hate won't change that as a fact. I am currently giving up a lot at the moment (food wise) to lose weight and I may never have the perfect body shape but I'd like to die knowing I at least tried and could see the outcome instead of wondering how I could of ended if I did try. My looks...some people say I'm ugly some say I am pretty....I hate how society works...but I do what I can because getting p*ssed off (which is understandable) does nothing. I am p*ssed off to the max....but that won't change....me changing it will. Best wishes. :'( I feel your pain.

At least you've had people saying you're pretty,I don't think you look that bad after all.

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First of all, I have to tell you that I'm not a native English speaker, therefore there could be grammatical mistakes, but you will understand everything I write.<br />
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Now, let us chat about this a little bit.<br />
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As a Christian I was interested in this post because I felt the same many times. I do not know what kind of answer you are seeking,if a spiritual answer (And I can give it to you) or a earthly answer, I'm sure that those will say you to do sports or to have plastic surgery or something like that, so judge the answers by yourselfs because there are not other answers.<br />
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The most important thing you have to know is that God does not care about the beauty on the outside but on the inside (this does not mean that God does not care about your feellings he can health you through prayer), if someone is pretty... sorry my dear friend, but that will not save or send him to heaven.<br />
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1Sa 16:7 But the LORD said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: FOR THE LORD SEES NOT AS MAN SEES; FOR MAN LOOKS ON THE OUTWARD APPEARANCE, BUT THE LORD LOOKS ON THE HEART.<br />
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So it is not right to say that God does not love you (Joh 3:16).<br />
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So, before the eyes of the Creator of the universe is more important to have a beautiful heart,a heart of flesh and not of stone, that will send you to heaven and will make you happy for all the eternity.<br />
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Now as I am concerned by experience, this answer will not make you fell better. (maybe because you do not believe in God)<br />
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I do not even know if you are a Christian, but the other thing I wanted to tell you is that there is hope for you, but only if you put God above all things, infinitely above all things, above family, above friends, and even yourself.<br />
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God wants you to put your trust upon his shoulder, you have to leave your life to be leaded by God, because he is worthy of it. <br />
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Mat 11:28 Come unto me, all you that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. <br />
Mat 11:29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and you shall find rest unto your souls. <br />
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Once you've done this, you have to know that this body is not eternal, it is only a "tent" which we will put aside.<br />
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2Co 5:1 For we know that if our earthly house of this tabernacle were dissolved, we have a building of God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. <br />
2Co 5:2 For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed upon with our house which is from heaven: <br />
2Co 5:3 If so be that being clothed we shall not be found naked. <br />
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Php 3:20 For our citizenship is in heaven; from which also we look for the Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ: <br />
Php 3:21 Who shall change our humble body, that it may be fashioned like unto his glorious body, according to the working by which he is able even to subdue all things unto himself. <br />
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Therefore, Jesus Christ will give a new , glorious and beautiful body to those who followed him wherever he goes. <br />
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And the answer is , how will be our glorious body ? They will be like Christ's glorious body (1 John 3:2-3, Phil 3:20-21, Rom 8:28-30, Ps 17:15, Ro 6:5-8, 1 Cor 15:49, 2 Cor 3:17-18) <br />
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And of course, the beauty of the resurrected body of Christ is is infinitely prettier than any man or woman.<br />
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THE GLORY OF THE LORD IS LIKE BEAUTIFUL COLORFUL BRIGHTNESS. Eze 1:26-28<br />
He has the brightness of God's glory. Heb 1:1-4<br />
AT THE TRANSFIGURATION, JESUS' FACE SHONE LIKE THE SUN. He was able to converse with Moses and Elijah. Lk 9:28-32, Mt 17:2-3<br />
JESUS APPEARED TO PAUL IN LIGHT. Ac 9:3-4, Ac 26:12-15<br />
In his revelation, John describes Jesus as having eyes like fire, feet like fine brass, voice like many waters, and a countenance like the sun shining in its strength. Re 1:13-18, Re 19:11-16<br />
Christ's resurrected body had flesh and bones and was able to eat. Lk 24:36-43<br />
He walked. Lk 24:15-16<br />
He was able to vanish from sight and enter locked rooms. Lk 24:25-32, Jn 20:19-20, Jn 20:26-29<br />
HE WILL NEVER DIE AGAIN. Ro 6:9<br />
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Take a look here for more information about our eternal and heavenly bodies<br />
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http://www.crossroad.to/heaven/contents/new_bodies.htm<br />
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Since the beauty of men and women here on eart last 20,30 years or something like that, the beauty of those you believed in Christ will last forever !!!<br />
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There were days when I felt the most handsome man of the face of the earth, and there were days when I felt so ugly, that i wanted to kill myself, seriously. So I thought about it and maybe all that was in my mind, I do not know whether your case is the same of not, but also think about it.<br />
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I do not think this answer will make you fell better because I do not think you are a Christian or that you want to serve the Lord, but there is only one truth and I told you.<br />
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I would suggest you to search for testimonies about "Near Death Experiences" of people who REALLY DIED and many of those went to hell and to heaven (this is not a joke) , just listen how beautiful they describe the heaven and the believers, with and indescribable beauty and attractive.<br />
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This is the reward of God.<br />
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Rev 22:12 And, behold, I come quickly; and my reward is with me, to give every man according as his work shall be.

What you said has nothing to do with my problem.

Imspanish and fughlygirlonthebench

Thank you so much for your posts

I'm so happy

It's people like you who helped me realize more and more

I now accept everything God created

And I'm not going to ask God to make me pretty as for my days on earth anymore

Well good for you! I am still ugly, isn't it obvious, tried every method to improve,yet still stuck in the same old box. And who's fault is that? It's ok, you don't have to say it out loud, we all know the answer to that.

Allow me to also remind you, God granted Job 3 beautiful daughters as a reward of his faithfulness.

If God didn't think it was important or something good, why did he bother to give them beauty.


Living in the world of in religious dogmas is no help to this poor person, trust me, I have tried it, looking forward only to "god's reward" is a fancy word for being ignorant of living in this world, Beauty does matter rather you are willing to accept it or now, it gives a person self confident, joy and happiness.

This is an emotional need, what you are telling her/him is no different than telling starving children in Africa that they should look forward to God and their hunger is nothing.

Thank you for understanding hihiip201.

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i just want to tell you you are not alone i am ugly boy,small height(173),fat 87 kg my father died when i was 6 i dont even remember him i never been on a date,kissed or anything i have 27 years,and i am dumb i am so ugly even my mom and grandma never say i am pretty when i asked them how do i look,i am in love for about 9 years in same girl from my neighbourhood but she said that she hates me cause i am ugly she doesnt even want to talk to me and i have to see her ever dayi tried too kill myself but i failed i went to church every sunday 2 times from april 2000 to february 2013 and pray god he makes me pretty or that girl i love give me just 1 chance i am from very small country and we have our language so i learned to pray in 4 different languages if god doesnt understand my language but god doesnt care about me,this year god gave my mom cancer and girl i like for 9 years is engage i dont even thing he exist and if he does i hate him and the worst thing is when i think about my future i see myself alone dead in apartment and neighbours find me after 3 weeks because of the smell of my dead body i am so sad :(

I understand how you feel. But you cant give up There are days i want to give up. I have My issues as well and Its something that bothers me every day. I was engaged but she left me. The girl i Love now Only sees me as a friend which Kills me but its something I've accepted. As a christian often times I admit I am angry at God. But I can tell you God Loves you enough that He became one of us and bled and Died for you . He Loves you so much that if you were the only Person Left on this Earth he still would have Died for you.

lol...it's funny god sacrificed for me? that's the funniest thing i've ever heard. if he would, i wouldn't feel all those sadness, depression and hopelessness. I was so sad I almost went insane, and where was God???Too busy tending over other people's lives?ha.ha