I Can't Even Drink This Slurpee...

hello, im 17 and guess what? yup i am another insecure individual, who is not happy with there physical appearance. my body among other features i am not happy with. for a few years now i have hated my body, and it seems to me that its only getting worse, so yesterday, i did something i though i'd never do. after i ate, i went to the bathroom and stuck my finger down my throat and threw up. i didnt think i'd ever do that, but im so desperate to get a little skinnier, i might just keep doing it. :'( i binge eat alot because im already so depressed and alone, and i always feel guilty afterwards. as i type this i took a small sip of my slurpee, i drink just yesterday i used to enjoy, and now i can barely even stand to look at it
heyyougetoffmyporch heyyougetoffmyporch
18-21, F
3 Responses Jun 6, 2012

I struggle with my body image too. I have tried to make myself throw up by drinking way to much water after i ate. Its so bad for you. if you feel like you want to throw up, try going running instead. Even if you can only get a block thats ok. The endorphins alone might help you feel better plus you can get in the habit of getting good exercise. feel better.

Please do not hurt yourself. You are here for a reason and you have a purpose in this life. The things that bluehummingbird and LunaWolff write are TRUE.<br />
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You are the writer of your own story. Learn who you are and be the best person you can be. Make your story a MASTERPIECE !<br />
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Every time you feel self hatred......say STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT 3 TIMES <br />
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Jot your thoughts down in a journal and eat something nourishing for your body. You can actually make yourself beautiful and healthy minded by eating the right foods ! <br />
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Tell yourself .....YOU CAN DO THIS ! Soon you will have a book to publish and can help other people who are having similar issues.<br />
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And REMEMBER......Do not define yourself by how much you weigh. Define yourself with how much integrity you have as a person.<br />
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Let me know how it goes.

Thats a pattern you dont want to find yourself getting into, I know Hating your own body is hard. But bad habits like that will only make your hatred worse trust me, it will spiral out of control. I hope someday you will learn to love yourself.. though i know that wont be easy xXx