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you should be happy with what u have i think you look sxy and gorgeous as hell. i used to be thin and now im fat and i got fat on purpose. society now is so concerned with be thin (not saying this is the issue with youbut is a good example) but i didnt care what society wanted i wanted to be fat and now im happy and still growing

I wish I had as much motivation as you do. Waking up soooo early and running? I honestly am inspired to not be lazy anymore. I don't know how you do it. I'm sure you're perfect though. You seem to work so hard!

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This is horriable!!! Beauty lies in eyes of the beholder And I am sure that there are plenty of peopel around that think ur damn near close to perfect. Love yourself and embrace your flaws bc you have the worthiness of going to bed with confidence that you a gorgeous!! Rather it be muscle your trying to gain, weight ur trying to lose or just tightening an area on ur body check out my website. . . the products have changed my life and gave me the capabilty to write you this message bc at one point i too felt the same way.

To love ur self is hard sometimes but i know all about it ive woked through it and love my self inside and our u just have to stay strong and look in the mirror and tell ur self 5 positive things about ur self.

hmm... that's kind of the problem right there.
you have to find something you're confident about and let that overshadow how you look physically.
& is your "hideousness" something that you can control or change? weight, skin, etc...?