i stare at my body in the mirror for at least 3 hours everyday as a ballet dancer. i hate it and love it. i hate my body. i wish i was thinner. i went on birth control recently and i feel like my stomach has gotten fatter. i hate having food in me. i hate existence. i love ballet so much, but with an eating disorder, i dont know how i am going to make it my career. i suck at it anyway. i am just kidding myself. 

pinkpaintedshirt pinkpaintedshirt
22-25, F
1 Response Mar 8, 2010

I was a ballet dancer too. Point, hip-hip ect. I know the pressures that come with being perfect all the time, it's not easy and its something I'v struggled with my entire life. I'm happy to done with dance. it was my passion but also represented alot of struggle