Can't Help It

Back in high school, I was perfectly fine with opening up to people, especially my friends. Sometimes I was even too open with people too soon. I soon learned my lesson and then went to the other end of the spectrum-I had difficulty opening up to anyone, including friends. The problem only got worse when I started college. I was in a new environment with new people, and I had no clue who to trust.

The minute I felt like I had someone I could trust, they would betray me. Then I found a girl was a very good friend to me, then she decided to transfer second semester. Ever since then I have found new friends, but I still struggle with opening up to them because, again, I am afraid they will betray me or they will dislike me for what I say. I know I need to change, but I don't know how.

dancer2011 dancer2011
18-21, F
2 Responses Sep 5, 2008

Wow you do!! My parents were overprotective as well AND I am 21 and still hoping to get my license! I think introverts are better because we are better listeners!

Yep. I can identify with this one. I went through something similar when I was only in elementary/ middle school. It is very difficult at that age to make the transition from being very young and not caring about what your peers think to having what your peers think constantly revolving in your head. I was not cute at that age on top of that so that did not help matters either. I was also raised in a very strict, overprotective household, and being the youngest of four - my mother held onto me with an iron will until she realized she HAD to let go. I was not allowed to go anywhere or do anything with my friends for fear that I might be kidnapped, raped, yada, yada, yada. I literally did not get my driver's license until I was 21 so yeah. I can totally identify with what you're saying. I was a little to open to begin with in elementary school because I took after my mother's somewhat abrasive nature that she had as a stressed out parent when I was very young. So I would say things to people without taking into account how it made them feel until the same things were being thrown back in my face. At least it's comforting to hear that I'm not alone in being an introvert, and I think there's actually more power in being an introvert than most extroverts realize.