Ok, no, it's not funny, in fact it's probably the main reason I am the way I am.
And why I had a bad day the other day and spent it in tears.
I just can't. It hurts that I can't. But I just can't. Something always stops me. Something makes me think that whatever my reason is for being like this is actually something quite stupid, and no one needs to know.
And Im scared that they would want to fix me, and they can't. Only I can fix me, they can just distract me.