Had It All My LifeI have suffered with chronic constipation ever since my early teens, I have been in and out of hospital all my life enduring different tests to see what could be the cause. I have been prescribed endless amounts of laxatives which never worked, been given diet sheets which never made a difference. I went through a time where I eaten nothing but fibre and even that didn't do anything! It got to the point where I was only going to the toilet once a month but one time, it was two months and I still hadn't gone and went really ill. I couldn't eat anything, it hurt to move so I was emergency admitted to hospital where I had an xray but as I was so full, nothing could be seen so I had to have an enema which was extremely painful. The doctors told me that if I had left it for another week or so, it would have gotten into my blood stream which could have been fatal. I haven't been that bad since but that is because I drink alcohol. I find that when I was badly constipated, if I get really drunk and take laxatives at the end of the night, it works and I have been telling the doctors this. All these rubbish laxatives don't do anything compared to alcohol. At first they said I might have a rare condition that might be causing this but when I went to a specialist hospital, the doctor told me that my bowel muscles might not be working properly which could be due to the fact that I wasn't properly potty trained as a child so on the 18th April, I have to have physiotherapy to see if I can get this muscle working again. If that doesn't work, I have to go through more tests and maybe surgery if nothing more can be done.
I have had so many xrays, scans where I've had to swallow a pill and go to hospital everyday for a few days and from this scan, they found that metabolism is barely moving but they don't know what the cause is as I have tried everything to speed it up. I have had a camera, a biopsy, this test where they injected porridge in me. It has been horrible. I really hope that this physiotherapy works and I can be normal because it really is ruining my life. I cannot work out when I am so full and it makes me feel so ill, I am constantly having stomach pains and it might be a contributing factor as to why I sometimes suffer with urinary retention. It is also impossible for me to lose weight which is really depressing as I hate my body. No matter how much I work out and how healthy I eat, I will stay the same. It's horrible.
Every year I wonder whether it will be the year when I will become better and now I am referred to a specialist hospital, I just hope that that year is going to be this year. Fingers crossed!
BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 4 Responses 0 Apr 10, 2012