If Only

if i never had to eat again, life would be so much easier. i limit my calorie intake never more then 1500 hundred calories a day, most days LESS. but still the food , is so hard to keep down at times. its a struggle. i fight, i feel i may never win. i know its not the right way to do it, but i 'am gonna cut my calorie intake even less. then maybe the urge, the feeling of vomiting will not be so strong.if only i never had to eat again.