The Unexpected

I didn't expect that when I graduated from college my biggest problem would be my health. I thought I'm young and strong. I'm pretty much invincible. That unfortunately turned out to be untrue. I am not invincible.
This truly is terrible. I deal with the numbness everyday. It never goes away and to make matters worse the doctors can't diagnose me, so they can't even treat me. They are only able to help me manage the symptoms through medication. There are times I feel so hopeless. If only I could get a diagnosis. If only I knew what was wrong with me.
This condition at times, feels almost too difficult to bear. I can't really wear any clothing on my lower extremities for very long and I can't really wear pants or panty hose at all. I'm stuck wearing pretty much the same clothing all time, I can't really go anywhere anymore and the worst part is it's getting cold outside and I can't even wear something warm. I'm constantly freezing. I just don't know what to do anymore. I mean I'm trying my best to be positive about the situation, but at times its just so difficult that I really just want to give up. I'm so tired of dealing with this thing that's ruining my life.
I went on a date last night and we went to see a movie, but I was in pain the entire time. I couldn't even enjoy it. The pain was all I could think about. It really sucked. All I want is to feel normal again, but sometimes I wonder if this pain is the new normal for me. I just want my health back. I just want my life back.
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22-25, F
1 Response Nov 26, 2012

Have you considered goning to a Mayo clinic in search of a diagnosis, or a teaching hospital?