I've been sick and I've been tired
Of faking all my smiles
Seems as though its come to this
It feels all like a lie
Every time I look within
There's chaos no respite
All the walls are caving in
The future ain't so bright

To the days of young
Filled with laughs and carelessness
I've crippled myself black
To the point of uselessness
And to regrets that eat me eat up
Seems like you've won the war
You won't be seeing this chin up
I'm not fighting anymore

To the ones I loved
I know I've kept you all at bay
I feel a sense of emptiness
That just won't go away
And to the ones that carry on
There's nothing left to say
Please don't cry for me
I'm not worth it anyways

Cause the pain of all these years
Has left me broken and in tears
But I don't mind, I don't mind
Leaving of all this behind
I don't mind, no I don't mind
If I'm running out of time

Maybe there's a side
I haven't seen before
Maybe I should try
To open up some doors
Maybe I could learn
To get up off the floor
But my stomach is so sore
And my boat has crashed ashore
And my dreams of being free died long ago

Cause the pain of all these years
Has left me broken and in tears
But I don't mind, I don't mind
Leaving of all this behind
I don't mind, no I don't mind
If I'm running out of time
Eli678 Eli678
26-30, F
3 Responses Apr 16, 2014

Don't you give up:)

I can definitely relate. Don't ever give up though!

Thank you so much. I wish it was easier sometimes… do you suffer from chronic pain as well?

Yes...

Thats beautifully written. I can relate :/

Thank you, I'm having a hard time lately… but I'm trying to hold on.