Life Feels Like Torture
I can't actually remember when I started hurting. When I was twelve, just getting up and making a sandwich was difficult. I could still do things, I would just hurt while I did them. I went to the doctor about it and other various complaints several times, but when she started thinking that I was a hypocondriac I decided that maybe I was. I tried to ignore the pain for years.
I'm twenty now, and I still don't know for sure what is causing the pain (although I suspect fibromyalgia). I've just been living with it, and I've developed a high pain tolerance (I barely react if I get a finger caught in the door). And I realize now that the pain is real, but I still sometimes struggle with feeling like I'm just lazy, that maybe I'm creating the pain so that I don't have to do things.