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I Suffer From Depersonalization Disorder

No Hope.

By: MommyndWifey
Written on June 29th, 2011
Will someone please tell me this gets better? I really have days where I don't wanna wake up because I have no hope that this is going to get better. Then I have those days where I feel like I can conquer the world. I have Panic and Anxiety Disorder associated with DPD. I don't like to have a panic attack because it scares me. I feel detached from my body and I feel like I'm going to end up in a mental hospital. Its so depressing living with this. Each day is so hard. I try my best to make it through everyday for my baby girl and my fiancee. I just don't know how I can make this better. I want my old life back. It seems like I'm just not realizing well like I'm not able to tell reality anymore. I don't want to not recognize my daughter or fiancee. I want to be able to tell what's real again. I'm trying therapy. That helps a little but yesterday my appointment was cancelled without them notifying me over the phone. I'm just so scared for myself. This is just taking over my life. I can't do things the way I used too. I can't go to the store without my anxiety going up. I just want my old life back. Will somebody please give me hope again and let me know that this does get better. I'm just having a hard time coping with this.
By: MommyndWifey
Age: 18-21 , Female
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5 responses
  • Ortiz112409
    Ortiz112409

    i have the same feeling, for about 3weeks. Im scared and feel nervous all day and dont want to go to work. I want to lay in bed and sleep. I feel unreal, but i know my suroundings are real. I start to think am i ever going to get better. Am i going to be stuck like this, i dnt even know how i use to feel. Worst thing is im going to give birth wed 2/22/12 and i think what if i dont get over this feeling??

    theres not much i can do, until after i have my sec bby girl.?? is there hope? i starteed going to church and reading the bible to sooth me. but then in my head i keep thinking negative.

    Feb 19, 2012
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  • Ice23
    Ice23

    Number one thing here ((about trying to keep on every day)), just try and keep your mind strong.

    Aug 10, 2011
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  • mightybear
    mightybear

    Well since the DPD is associated with panic and anxiety, you can try medications to help ease it. It's hard to live your life when it all seems to fake and unreal, just try reminding yourself that you are real and everything around you is real. There's no denying that this is all real. I don't know what to tell you about the anxiety but the DPD isn't always going to be terrible.

    Jul 15, 2011
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  • skeabeswe
    skeabeswe

    My dear, I am sorry that you have panick attacks. he problem is that your mind is occupied with negative thoughts and you have no hope. Always try to daydream about how you wish things would be and play it always on my mind. Wish you the best. As i typing this I am hurting right now, things doesn't go as I wished. I am in pain and tears are filled with tears and I feel hopeless BUT I know i will be fine.

    Jun 29, 2011
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  • AmZiCo
    AmZiCo

    It can get better. You talk about your old life. I guess you didn't had panick attacks then. Remember things don't have to be the way it is forever. Changes happends.

    Jun 29, 2011
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