At LastOn Friday last week I finally accepted that I needed help & went to the Doctors..I explained all about my wife leaving & how I was feeling/coping (wasn't) in fact I broke down in tears & told him the truth I had thoughts of suicide..
Been battling it for last 8 months & always hid behind this façade of being the joker & life n soul of any gathering but inside I was weeping..
Glad I did now as it explains a lot of things about my behaviour of late & now I am on meds I can start to get better & sort thing out..
Think it was the stigma associated with mental health but lately there has been a big ad campaign launched here in Scotland so its serendipitous in a way that I choose to go when I did.
Told my tutor also & he was fantastic about it..
No idea what the future holds apart from optimism for this year.Know its going to a struggle but I aim to get better & if possible help others along the way...