I've been depressed for many years. No one has paid much attention to me about it because in my family we ignore problems. My biggest issue is that I live at home in an environment that has me constantly at odds with myself and always angry. My parents are both on anti-depressants and it hasn't helped them. My father is constantly nasty and punishing for every little mistake. My mother sits in her chair in front of the television all day long. I've been on the pills before and nothing changed. Why should I take medication and see a therapist? Why should I have to medicate myself with pills that don't work to live in a household of people that won't change? I'm constantly miserable as it is. What is the point to be chemically happy for a couple seconds only to have that destroyed? Anything that makes me happy is only a weapon that my father uses to make me miserable. So
f uck medication and f uck therapy. It won't work and I refuse to dumb myself up with pills to make the people around me think its okay to remain the ******** that they are. If I have to change, so do they.