What Is The Point?

I've been depressed for many years. No one has paid much attention to me about it because in my family we ignore problems. My biggest issue is that I live at home in an environment that has me constantly at odds with myself and always angry. My parents are both on anti-depressants and it hasn't helped them. My father is constantly nasty and punishing for every little mistake. My mother sits in her chair in front of the television all day long. I've been on the pills before and nothing changed. Why should I take medication and see a therapist? Why should I have to medicate myself with pills that don't work to live in a household of people that won't change? I'm constantly miserable as it is. What is the point to be chemically happy for a couple seconds only to have that destroyed? Anything that makes me happy is only a weapon that my father uses to make me miserable. So

f uck medication and f uck therapy. It won't work and I refuse to dumb myself up with pills to make the people around me think its okay to remain the ******** that they are. If I have to change, so do they.

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2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

Medication, therapy, a healthy life style, etc. are all musts in order to lead a functional lifestyle. Take it from me, someone who was left behind because my ex couldn't get himself together. He's been depressed for a minimum of the past 2 years & suicidal for the past year and a half. He's not dealing with it well, in fact, not dealing with it at all. No meds, no therapy, no healthy eating, nothing. Depression has destroyed his & I's relationship. We were together for nearly 4 years, going to move in together soon, possibly be engaged within the year, have kids, etc. Now I'm left with nothing; left to pick up the pieces. My suggestion would be to try to not worry about your parents so much. They may be stuck in their ways, but that doesn't mean that you can't be happy. Therapy can be very effective if you find the right therapist to fit your needs & personality. The same goes with meds. While one med. may be of no use to you, I'm sure you'll be able to find one that works for you if you just give it some time. If your parents are holding you back health wise, maybe it would be best to get out of that environment for awhile until your own health is more stable.

this site is like anonymous therapy without padded room time. Medication is great, it's alright to take it as prescribed. There is a beauty and allure to having to take it. enjoy life. parents grow aged and feel responsible for so much, don't let them give up, or just go on about your business without having to pay much attention to them. You could look at your home life like a job.