I Used To Make Fun Of People Like Me

I used to make use of people like me....called them lazy...that it wasn't a real disease.
In March of 2010 my step father (who I was very close with) suddenly died. I completely lost it. I have always been the strong one, first born, calm during panic, steady, steadfast- until that day. That was the day everything changed. See I had to be strong for my mother, take care of everything, I couldn't let her die from the stress of his death so when I flew home I took over- business like and protection mode.."nothing and no one was going to hurt my mom and I was not going to show how sad I was to have lost Gerry" I did very little crying and I believe this helped push me in the Fibro direction.
After I go home and resumed a normal life I found myself feeling sick. I was tired all the time. I was in pain and for no real reason. One day I would feel like I was coming down with the flu and then the next day I was fine. And over time it grew to become worse. I missed marching band for my son and concerts for my daughter. I couldn't commit to anything with church or friends because I just knew I couldn't follow through because I would feel too sick. Work became so bad, when my boss would speak with me, if I was not chewing gum I would fall asleep while he was talking to me or while he was talking-I couldn't understand a word he was saying...it was like he was talking another language. There were days I would have to hide in my office and hope I wouldn't have to talk to anyone because the pain and fogg was so bad-I was embarassed...days where my hair hurts, my skin can't take the sheets touching it. The lights are too bright and I'm hot around my midsection but the rest of me is cold as ice.
I can't believe I am still working-I cycle I guess...I will have a good run and then fall flat on my face, I've been in a bad way for about 2 weeks now.
This is my long story short-I am sorry I ever thought badly of anyone with this-I wouldn't wish it on my worse enemy.
swoopy41 swoopy41
41-45, F
3 Responses Jan 17, 2013

I feel bad for you... I really hope you get better. Im just happy my fibro isn't as bad as yours, but I hope you can get better

Swoopy41,
After I was diagnosed with FMS, I was totally disabled. Now, I have been out of pain and off meds for 13 years. I did it by balancing my hormones, initially balancing brain chemistry, cleaning up my diet, and clearing some toxins, which is likely something you won't hear in your doctor’s offices.

I have been studying and working the past 13 years to help others in their recoveries. I want people to get well.

Out of a passion to help others get well, I have written Reversing Chronic Disease: A Journey Back to Health, which is endorsed by Dr. Jacob Teitelbaum and 2 other MDs.

Don’t accept the word "incurable." Keep fighting for restored health. If I can get well, why can't others. I believe something better is out there with your name on it.
I want to encourage each of you with fibromyalgia. I understand what you are going through. I have been there.

After being totally disabled with fibromyalgia many years ago, I have been without pain and off medications for over 13 years. I didn't happen over night, but it did happen.

Here is what I have done to get well.
1. Identify and correct hormonal imbalances using plant-based replacement.
2. Initially corrected brain chemical imbalances, particularly improving a naturally occurring brain chemical called dopamine.
3. Cleaned up my diet and eliminated milk, a food that was causing trouble for me.
4. Cleaned up some toxins.

Rheumatologists and patients typically don't understand the symptoms of hormonal imbalance. I want to help change that. The technology is in the here and now to identify and correct hormonal imbalance.

Do a little research to see if you have symptoms of hormonal imbalance. If you have many of these symptoms, study to find out how to identify and correct imbalances.
Here is a hug to each of you. I want you to feel well again.

Patricia Stephens, Certified Nutritional Consultant

Your story is so similar to mine. My mother died in April of 2011, and my issues started shortly after that. I'm finding that fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, complicated by low cortisol/adrenal fatigue, are an everyday struggle. I'm so sorry that you are experiencing this too, but it's nice to know that there is someone else out there that understands. I feel very isolated. Nicki